ikkaku2327
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I take muay thai kickboxing and brazilian jujitsu for 2 years now but i have no clothes or social life. Just stuff like sweat pants and what not.
schools started and i look like a fit bum -_____
what you guys decided is what is going to affect and change this year of my life and i know its stupid but i can't decide
Gym i pretty much do it because i love intimidating people and hate losing. at least its what i've been told. Since i think i have two personalities one friendly outside of school and in school. Everyone thinks im crazy since i have "anger problems" only in school thought. i've fought almost everyone at my school yet i've never made a friend. Even girls tend to be scared of me. Just before summer started i went into a crazed frenzy in wendys breaking the glass door to the enter wendys. Even went as far as to go outside and pick fights with people walking by. Im a really nice person and educated. Im just writing a bit fast because i really want an answer. I love the gym and i can't see myself not doing it But i have no memory of the last time i had fun. "Fun" is spending 3-12 at the gym. No social lifes and no friends besides the ones i made previously to joining the gym and does at the gym. Another thing is i can't blame the gym since it's my fault because im to paranoid. In school i think everyone's out to get me and because of it i close myself in a bubble. the other option is to join my mom's weight gym for free since she works their and pretty much enjoy my teenage life since im already 17 and have done nothing besides train. To tell you the truth i haven't had a gf and obviously sex for 2 and a half years I've been to focused on the gym. Even when girls would ask me out i would tell them i had to go to the gym. So yea...it's bad another thing with is kinda weird to tell random strangers is i have a disease hydranatis supertiva something like that. So i have low low self esteem although i am and not to pad myself on the back A pretty handsome guy and have been told so by others. SO with this disease and low self esteem i never saw a reason to dress nice since girls would take my clothes off and wonder "Wtf is that!" I many girl's overlooked it just for sex but never long term stuff. Since i mean it's very very mild case where now it's just scars.
idk what to do...im sad emotional angry and confused and on accutine so emotions are 100x enhanced.
so yeah
Weight gym and clothes more self esteem maybe social life and a happy teenage life
mma gym no good clothes i can probably work on self esteem myself try to fix social life and overall just hope for the best?
please help
schools started and i look like a fit bum -_____
what you guys decided is what is going to affect and change this year of my life and i know its stupid but i can't decide
Gym i pretty much do it because i love intimidating people and hate losing. at least its what i've been told. Since i think i have two personalities one friendly outside of school and in school. Everyone thinks im crazy since i have "anger problems" only in school thought. i've fought almost everyone at my school yet i've never made a friend. Even girls tend to be scared of me. Just before summer started i went into a crazed frenzy in wendys breaking the glass door to the enter wendys. Even went as far as to go outside and pick fights with people walking by. Im a really nice person and educated. Im just writing a bit fast because i really want an answer. I love the gym and i can't see myself not doing it But i have no memory of the last time i had fun. "Fun" is spending 3-12 at the gym. No social lifes and no friends besides the ones i made previously to joining the gym and does at the gym. Another thing is i can't blame the gym since it's my fault because im to paranoid. In school i think everyone's out to get me and because of it i close myself in a bubble. the other option is to join my mom's weight gym for free since she works their and pretty much enjoy my teenage life since im already 17 and have done nothing besides train. To tell you the truth i haven't had a gf and obviously sex for 2 and a half years I've been to focused on the gym. Even when girls would ask me out i would tell them i had to go to the gym. So yea...it's bad another thing with is kinda weird to tell random strangers is i have a disease hydranatis supertiva something like that. So i have low low self esteem although i am and not to pad myself on the back A pretty handsome guy and have been told so by others. SO with this disease and low self esteem i never saw a reason to dress nice since girls would take my clothes off and wonder "Wtf is that!" I many girl's overlooked it just for sex but never long term stuff. Since i mean it's very very mild case where now it's just scars.
idk what to do...im sad emotional angry and confused and on accutine so emotions are 100x enhanced.
so yeah
Weight gym and clothes more self esteem maybe social life and a happy teenage life
mma gym no good clothes i can probably work on self esteem myself try to fix social life and overall just hope for the best?
please help