serious anxiety... afraid to get back on meds... what should i do!?

  • Thread starter Thread starter aRogers3
  • Start date Start date
A

aRogers3

Guest
i have serious anxiety & stress.
i break down & cry at work almost once a week.
it gets to the point that i can't control it & no matter how hard i try to hold back the tears, nothing works.
i just get so stressed & i start to feel like i can't handle the tasks i'm given.
i have worried about my position here...
i don't want management to think i can't do my job or that i'm unstable.
i'm so erabarrassed by this...
i get racing thoughs, paranoia, i always think the worst possible thing will happen.
my heart rate rises when i'm in a store or around people, i start to feel like i'm being trapped in...
anyway, i have taken perscription medications since i was younger.
in 2006, i finally said no more & took myself off of everything.
i've been fighting for a very long time with this & i just keep hoping that it will get better.
i'm REALLY not interested in getting back on medications...
but, i'm starting to think it's what i need.
does anyone have any advice?
i would like to find something that won't have any weird side affects or make me feel "high."
that's not what i'm looking for at all - i want to feel normal with no anxiety.
or even less! i could handle that...
so... if anyone has any suggestions, please let me know.
i've found that the only thing that works for me is to say the serenity prayer aloud, but it only goes so far.
i'm getting ready to get it tattooed on my body somewhere...
it's THAT severe.
my poor fiance...
i put him through the ringer with my stress & anxiety.
i just want to feel better so i can be a better woman, daughter, wife, etc...

thanks!
 
Please know that I met a mature woman in the E/R,a while back.She was a grief councelor for my situation that day,and never left my side for two hours,but would not let me go into the treatment area,for two hours.In this stressful environment,she told me that she takes Ativan(lLorazapam)before she arrives at
work...every day.This anxiety pill has also been great for me,when I have needed it.It was fast working,and I had no side effects.(Neither did the councilor).A familty Dr. can prescribe this.It was not habit forming,even though it is a controlled drug.Also,plse get a copy of a book by Marshall Rosenberg,for your
shortage of self-esteem.I guarantee (almost) that you will be able to inter-act
with any person you are in contact with.I used to get red-faced with any one at
work,on a one-on-one conversation.I was taught in the book,not to pay ANY attention to worRAB directed at you.These worRAB are THOUGHTS of others,and
are completely out of your control.They are expressing their UNMET NEERAB.Only
pay attention to their feelings and neeRAB.I now get along with my daughter,
after several years of conflict.Using empathy to others, is an important goal also.
Lots of luck......Bill
 
Back
Top