Ok, so this is going to be long, but I am writing because I really want to sort out my problem. Here is my story..
I am 16 years old, suffer from depression and am currently taking medication for this. Every time I like a guy, I get just where I want to be, and then we almost go out together, but I get too scared. I feel like I can't kiss, but I think that it's just in my head. When I think about dating, I don't like the thought of having to buy/receive presents as it can be awkward, and also I am still a virgin, which is fine with me, but when the time comes, I'm not that confident (especially 'downstairs') and would prefer it to happen in the dark, mostly clothed! Is this really bad? I also hate eating in front of people, especially boys, and don't even like to be seen buying unhealthy food. I feel so screwed up, but I really would like a relationship.
I went to a party the other day, and the boy I like kissed me, but I didn't kiss him back. It was so unexpected and I panicked! BUT, he has a girlfriend?! I feel kinda guilty, but I don't think it was me in the wrong. I have a counsellor, so do I tell her about my intimacy problems? She is fairly old and I think it would just be awkward to talk about.
Next time, do I just go with the kiss, whoever it might be? The thing is just that I appear really confident on the outside, but then when we are closer, my insecurities really show, I guess. Thank you so much, in advance!
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Thanks Mark! I think I'm better off with the medication, which is why I don't seem depressed haha. If you saw me before, then I was so much worse. The side effects aren't too bad, just a bit shaky. And I'm not like.. overweight or anything, I think I'm like, 5 ft 2 or 3, and around 7 stone 6. Also, I don't live on junk food either, I'm vegetarian, but I occasionally get chips or something. :/
I am 16 years old, suffer from depression and am currently taking medication for this. Every time I like a guy, I get just where I want to be, and then we almost go out together, but I get too scared. I feel like I can't kiss, but I think that it's just in my head. When I think about dating, I don't like the thought of having to buy/receive presents as it can be awkward, and also I am still a virgin, which is fine with me, but when the time comes, I'm not that confident (especially 'downstairs') and would prefer it to happen in the dark, mostly clothed! Is this really bad? I also hate eating in front of people, especially boys, and don't even like to be seen buying unhealthy food. I feel so screwed up, but I really would like a relationship.
I went to a party the other day, and the boy I like kissed me, but I didn't kiss him back. It was so unexpected and I panicked! BUT, he has a girlfriend?! I feel kinda guilty, but I don't think it was me in the wrong. I have a counsellor, so do I tell her about my intimacy problems? She is fairly old and I think it would just be awkward to talk about.
Next time, do I just go with the kiss, whoever it might be? The thing is just that I appear really confident on the outside, but then when we are closer, my insecurities really show, I guess. Thank you so much, in advance!
xxxThanks Mark! I think I'm better off with the medication, which is why I don't seem depressed haha. If you saw me before, then I was so much worse. The side effects aren't too bad, just a bit shaky. And I'm not like.. overweight or anything, I think I'm like, 5 ft 2 or 3, and around 7 stone 6. Also, I don't live on junk food either, I'm vegetarian, but I occasionally get chips or something. :/