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lemonflavor
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I'm not sure what I'm asking for in this post. Maybe some encouragement and answers to a couple of questions.
I had a microdiscectomy a year and a half ago and it was pretty much successful but then everything else wrong with my back got waaay worse and degeneration sped up a lot. So I had a double fusion L4 - S1 two and a half weeks ago with titanium hardware, laminectomy/decompression and removal of scar tissue.
The hospital stay was a nightmare. The morphine was dripping onto the floor unknowingly for at least 12-24 hours. I told them I was in a ton of pain but they said the morphine was all they could do (thinking it was going into my body). The pharmacy kept getting my psychiatric drugs wrong. I had an anxiety attack and was sweating like crazy for two days. Had a blood transfusion. People parading through my room every hour and could never really sleep.
(I don't mean to scare anyone. This is a worst case scenario. I was already on high doses of medication so I would be in pain no matter what. And the psych. conditions plus chronic fatigue are very bad for me. It shouldn't be nearly that bad for any of you. And I'm confident it will be worth it.)
So now I'm just scared and anxious. I'm making some progress in mobility and the pain is lessening a little but I keep thinking about failed fusion and having to go back into the hospital. I really think I was traumatized by it. I can't sleep tonight. It's getting ridiculous. I'm a Christian and have God on my side whether good or bad happens but I just can't stop worrying.
With a failed fusion what do they do? I have the titanium hardware (posterior).
Also, the PTs were acting like it's life or death that I walk a lot 4x a day, sit a lot, do exercises etc. I told them I have chronic fatigue but it was like them hearing "blah blah". I decided to go at my own pace doing some exercises every other day and walking more every other day but still trying to get in 4x. I just hope I'm doing enough. Crashing from fatigue won't help. I was doing some exercises for the last few years so hopefully that will give me a head start.
I better stop there or this message will look even longer than it is. Thanks for reading.
Jeff
I had a microdiscectomy a year and a half ago and it was pretty much successful but then everything else wrong with my back got waaay worse and degeneration sped up a lot. So I had a double fusion L4 - S1 two and a half weeks ago with titanium hardware, laminectomy/decompression and removal of scar tissue.
The hospital stay was a nightmare. The morphine was dripping onto the floor unknowingly for at least 12-24 hours. I told them I was in a ton of pain but they said the morphine was all they could do (thinking it was going into my body). The pharmacy kept getting my psychiatric drugs wrong. I had an anxiety attack and was sweating like crazy for two days. Had a blood transfusion. People parading through my room every hour and could never really sleep.
(I don't mean to scare anyone. This is a worst case scenario. I was already on high doses of medication so I would be in pain no matter what. And the psych. conditions plus chronic fatigue are very bad for me. It shouldn't be nearly that bad for any of you. And I'm confident it will be worth it.)
So now I'm just scared and anxious. I'm making some progress in mobility and the pain is lessening a little but I keep thinking about failed fusion and having to go back into the hospital. I really think I was traumatized by it. I can't sleep tonight. It's getting ridiculous. I'm a Christian and have God on my side whether good or bad happens but I just can't stop worrying.
With a failed fusion what do they do? I have the titanium hardware (posterior).
Also, the PTs were acting like it's life or death that I walk a lot 4x a day, sit a lot, do exercises etc. I told them I have chronic fatigue but it was like them hearing "blah blah". I decided to go at my own pace doing some exercises every other day and walking more every other day but still trying to get in 4x. I just hope I'm doing enough. Crashing from fatigue won't help. I was doing some exercises for the last few years so hopefully that will give me a head start.
I better stop there or this message will look even longer than it is. Thanks for reading.
Jeff
