Please someone.. take the time to help a girl out. I will vote, please I have nobody else.
Some background info: I am 20 years old and have been dating this guy now for 3 years now. He is fixing to be 23 years old next month. He has two children with his exgirlfriend and she was actually pregnant with her second child when I started dating him. They broke it off when she found out she was pregnant because he found out she was being unfaithful. He joined the army last year in order to "get away from her" he says because she is a little nuts (she broke his window 3 times while she knew I was at his home).
I payed to visit him in another state (6 hour flight) while he was in AIT from me and it was great. We had a great time. We got into it because his ex found out I went to see him and he said she said she was going to keep the kids from him (he pays child support) and just craziness once again. I told him I was leaving him alone for good and I left him alone for two weeks and on that weekend he started messaging me things about wanting to marry me, and I just kept writing back saying it was bull and he would just reply with "answer me, will you marry me?” and things like that and I told him he knows I would and he kept saying he wanted a real answer.. Basically wanting the answer he already knew. I finally replied “yes” and he stopped writing me that night and he never brought it up again even though through his texts, I could tell he wasn't THAT drunk.. he knew what he was doing. That was a year ago now.
So, now he is in Germany. Him and his ex are barely speak so I know she's sort of out of the picture other than being his kid's mom.. He doesn't see her in any way as a partner or anything so I'm good with all of that. I just don't understand what he wants from me. We don't argue really. We're a good couple. I love him more than anything. I know I love him and I can't see myself without him in my life no matter how hard I try. He makes me so happy and he knows this. I think about him all the time. ALL the time. He knows it all. I am faithful to him, am always here for him... I went to visit him not too long ago in Germany (I payed) and when I came home, he said he didn't know how he felt anymore. This hurt me more than anything I think I have ever been hurt but he wrote me a day later on messenger as if nothing had happened even though I told him how hurt I felt. He just acted like nothing was wrong. I tried to bring “us” up again two weeks ago and it ended in an argument where I told him to just leave me alone cause we can’t just be friends. I can’t do that. He just writes me the next day again. This Sunday, we got into it again cause I asked that since he’s going to Iraq soon, I’m going to need to know if hes going to want me to visit again in Germany before he goes since I’ll have to save money. He said probably not. I didn’t respond and just logged off. It was hurting me Monday morning so I wrote him trying to talk about it again and he got mad and stopped replying. I was afraid he’d blocked me so I just said that if he didn’t reply, he’d regret it (cause I was going to change my phone number) probably. Well, I put all calls to be ignored and he called me sooo many times (I know calls are expensive from there), his friends were calling me, everyone was calling and sending me messages. His mom(SURPRISE) began calling me and leaving me voicemails Tuesday how he wasn’t sleeping cause he was worried and he began calling me like every thirty minutes all day, even like at times which were like 12 am to 6 am his time, times where he should be sleeping. I decided to call today. I called him and his mom and his mom basically said “he said you’re a good friend of his and he loves you a lot, but as a friend and was just worried” .. After everything, he tells his mom I’m just a friend…?
I called him and he said he just wanted to make sure I was okay. I tried to bring us up again and he said I keep pushing him and that he doesn’t know what he wants and I’m pushing him to make a choice. I asked him if he wants me to leave me alone and he answered “I just tried so hard to just make sure you’re okay.. take that as you want…?” I don’t understand?? What does he want from me? I’m fixing to finish school and have my bachelors in a year.. I’m waiting for him. I don’t talk to any guys (even though opportunities are there to move on) cause I’m waiting for him. I feel like I put so much in for nothing? I don’t know how Iraq is going to be and how much I’ll be able to talk to him so I guess I am pressuring him to find out what he wants with me before he goes but all he says is he’s not going to make me wait. He’s not a letter person so I’m afraid after he leaves that’ll be it. I can’t decipher him at all! His used to be best friend (not so much since he left, told me his mom isn't stupid and knows it's more than just friends but still.. she said FRIEND in a weird way). He’s the most difficult person when it comes
Some background info: I am 20 years old and have been dating this guy now for 3 years now. He is fixing to be 23 years old next month. He has two children with his exgirlfriend and she was actually pregnant with her second child when I started dating him. They broke it off when she found out she was pregnant because he found out she was being unfaithful. He joined the army last year in order to "get away from her" he says because she is a little nuts (she broke his window 3 times while she knew I was at his home).
I payed to visit him in another state (6 hour flight) while he was in AIT from me and it was great. We had a great time. We got into it because his ex found out I went to see him and he said she said she was going to keep the kids from him (he pays child support) and just craziness once again. I told him I was leaving him alone for good and I left him alone for two weeks and on that weekend he started messaging me things about wanting to marry me, and I just kept writing back saying it was bull and he would just reply with "answer me, will you marry me?” and things like that and I told him he knows I would and he kept saying he wanted a real answer.. Basically wanting the answer he already knew. I finally replied “yes” and he stopped writing me that night and he never brought it up again even though through his texts, I could tell he wasn't THAT drunk.. he knew what he was doing. That was a year ago now.
So, now he is in Germany. Him and his ex are barely speak so I know she's sort of out of the picture other than being his kid's mom.. He doesn't see her in any way as a partner or anything so I'm good with all of that. I just don't understand what he wants from me. We don't argue really. We're a good couple. I love him more than anything. I know I love him and I can't see myself without him in my life no matter how hard I try. He makes me so happy and he knows this. I think about him all the time. ALL the time. He knows it all. I am faithful to him, am always here for him... I went to visit him not too long ago in Germany (I payed) and when I came home, he said he didn't know how he felt anymore. This hurt me more than anything I think I have ever been hurt but he wrote me a day later on messenger as if nothing had happened even though I told him how hurt I felt. He just acted like nothing was wrong. I tried to bring “us” up again two weeks ago and it ended in an argument where I told him to just leave me alone cause we can’t just be friends. I can’t do that. He just writes me the next day again. This Sunday, we got into it again cause I asked that since he’s going to Iraq soon, I’m going to need to know if hes going to want me to visit again in Germany before he goes since I’ll have to save money. He said probably not. I didn’t respond and just logged off. It was hurting me Monday morning so I wrote him trying to talk about it again and he got mad and stopped replying. I was afraid he’d blocked me so I just said that if he didn’t reply, he’d regret it (cause I was going to change my phone number) probably. Well, I put all calls to be ignored and he called me sooo many times (I know calls are expensive from there), his friends were calling me, everyone was calling and sending me messages. His mom(SURPRISE) began calling me and leaving me voicemails Tuesday how he wasn’t sleeping cause he was worried and he began calling me like every thirty minutes all day, even like at times which were like 12 am to 6 am his time, times where he should be sleeping. I decided to call today. I called him and his mom and his mom basically said “he said you’re a good friend of his and he loves you a lot, but as a friend and was just worried” .. After everything, he tells his mom I’m just a friend…?
I called him and he said he just wanted to make sure I was okay. I tried to bring us up again and he said I keep pushing him and that he doesn’t know what he wants and I’m pushing him to make a choice. I asked him if he wants me to leave me alone and he answered “I just tried so hard to just make sure you’re okay.. take that as you want…?” I don’t understand?? What does he want from me? I’m fixing to finish school and have my bachelors in a year.. I’m waiting for him. I don’t talk to any guys (even though opportunities are there to move on) cause I’m waiting for him. I feel like I put so much in for nothing? I don’t know how Iraq is going to be and how much I’ll be able to talk to him so I guess I am pressuring him to find out what he wants with me before he goes but all he says is he’s not going to make me wait. He’s not a letter person so I’m afraid after he leaves that’ll be it. I can’t decipher him at all! His used to be best friend (not so much since he left, told me his mom isn't stupid and knows it's more than just friends but still.. she said FRIEND in a weird way). He’s the most difficult person when it comes