I could go on for pages but the issue (bottomline) for me now is this: how much more of this crap should I have to take? How much should I suffer because my bff wants to stay in or keep contact with bad relations***s? Again all of her boys had a prob with me but none attacked straight me the way this dude did, and all she can say is ...Nothing. She thinks just cause she has refused to end our friendship on his account this constitutes 'defending' me; and its not her fault if he talks s*** to me. Obviously we are not dealing with a normal situation with normal people here. BUT I am big on respect, and it is clear to me that she has no respect for our friendship and what Im going through here, taking heat from her boy toy, and for what!?
But dont forget, she has noone!! No one at all, as in, if I bail, she will be alone with no one to talk to. Then the idiot will go for gold, he'll say I told you she wasnt your real friend. But the truth is Im cracking. I'm beginning to wonder which one of us has the lower self respect! I know for a fact that I care; I cant leave her alone. My close and trusted friend tried to tell her straight in her face today not to take mine and her friendship for granted but she didnt see it, she doesnt acknowledge that what this guy said to me in his txt is burning me and that MY feelings count here, she actually thinks we are all in this together. I should say, shes kind of selfish and heartless, but shes really a caring sweet entertaining person when shes in her right mind; she tries to be mean and bossy mostly when shes trying to cover for her lack of assertiveness and get her way, as it is she doesnt acknowledge my feelings coz she knows if she does I could choose to walk and she really doesnt want me too - took me a while to figure that out!! But Im beginning to feel like a fool for standing by. But my trusted friend confirmed for me when I asked him when we were alone - in the current mindless state shes in, she needs my support. Truth is I'm torn between my innate nature to take care of people and the best thing for me, what I can or should do. I'd never live with myself even if I walked, shes not strong, but i cant leave her hanging either! But just because I can take the heat (I think), should I? She shows no signs of changing, she keeps letting this guy abuse her, I'm losing it, he knows shes weak, I know its a cycle and blah blah, but whose caring for me while I'm busy caring for someone esle?? HELPP!!
But dont forget, she has noone!! No one at all, as in, if I bail, she will be alone with no one to talk to. Then the idiot will go for gold, he'll say I told you she wasnt your real friend. But the truth is Im cracking. I'm beginning to wonder which one of us has the lower self respect! I know for a fact that I care; I cant leave her alone. My close and trusted friend tried to tell her straight in her face today not to take mine and her friendship for granted but she didnt see it, she doesnt acknowledge that what this guy said to me in his txt is burning me and that MY feelings count here, she actually thinks we are all in this together. I should say, shes kind of selfish and heartless, but shes really a caring sweet entertaining person when shes in her right mind; she tries to be mean and bossy mostly when shes trying to cover for her lack of assertiveness and get her way, as it is she doesnt acknowledge my feelings coz she knows if she does I could choose to walk and she really doesnt want me too - took me a while to figure that out!! But Im beginning to feel like a fool for standing by. But my trusted friend confirmed for me when I asked him when we were alone - in the current mindless state shes in, she needs my support. Truth is I'm torn between my innate nature to take care of people and the best thing for me, what I can or should do. I'd never live with myself even if I walked, shes not strong, but i cant leave her hanging either! But just because I can take the heat (I think), should I? She shows no signs of changing, she keeps letting this guy abuse her, I'm losing it, he knows shes weak, I know its a cycle and blah blah, but whose caring for me while I'm busy caring for someone esle?? HELPP!!