I have lived at my mums home all my life until last month when my mum got me arrested for criminal damage (this was for breaking into the shed for reasons of re-obtaining my clothes she locked away in there).
The court immediately threw the case out and suggested I find another place of residence. I managed to seek accomodation at the YMCA and by this time I'd already got back in touch with her and she and I thought I would be better off in a house share with people my own age.
I'm now back home after things not working out and everything is starting to get back to the same ways, despite me getting a job and being more acceptable at home.
I have been suffering from depression since the age of 17 (I am now 21) and as time has gone on, my options have kept dwindling.
My mum suffers from anorexia and has many mental health problems, she has mood swings whereby one minute she'd do anything for me, the next she's telling me to go away when I reach out the most.
I was close to cutting myself tonight but I didn't. I looked on here for the least painful ways of suicide because I'm a pussy and don't like pain, but I don't know what to do. Even if I move out I can't afford to live on the wage I'm currently getting.
It makes sense to me to end it all cuz' I can't cope and not getting any support, from my ill father or mother. My brother poisons my relationship with my brother. I'm miserable and constantly think of death. Suggestions?
The court immediately threw the case out and suggested I find another place of residence. I managed to seek accomodation at the YMCA and by this time I'd already got back in touch with her and she and I thought I would be better off in a house share with people my own age.
I'm now back home after things not working out and everything is starting to get back to the same ways, despite me getting a job and being more acceptable at home.
I have been suffering from depression since the age of 17 (I am now 21) and as time has gone on, my options have kept dwindling.
My mum suffers from anorexia and has many mental health problems, she has mood swings whereby one minute she'd do anything for me, the next she's telling me to go away when I reach out the most.
I was close to cutting myself tonight but I didn't. I looked on here for the least painful ways of suicide because I'm a pussy and don't like pain, but I don't know what to do. Even if I move out I can't afford to live on the wage I'm currently getting.
It makes sense to me to end it all cuz' I can't cope and not getting any support, from my ill father or mother. My brother poisons my relationship with my brother. I'm miserable and constantly think of death. Suggestions?