Reccommendation on book about Body Image etc...?

[chelsi]

Well I've been on ebay for 1 hour looking for a good book to read to help me. I have been seeking professional help but hated my 1st therapist and i'm in the process of finding a new one. I think I have body dysmorphic disorder and just low self-esteem overall.People really could never tell because I hide it so well, try to look my best, but am constantly looking sideways in the mirror living in fear of gaining weight. I drive everyone nuts with the "I'm so fat" garbage. Sometimes I see my true body and sometimes I just don't. I grew up in a home where my father was bulimic and I was obviously tormented due to that. I have not been able to exercise lately do to back surgery and am becoming antsy picking out every body flaw. I eat whatever I want and am a healthy weight of 127 but I just can't kick these feelings and they are really interfereing with my relationship. I just want to see what everyone else sees when I look in the mirror. It's not bad enough to come from a home like this, but with how society is it's even harder for me. Please give me suggestions on books to read that will keep me away from all these negatives thoughts and obsession with the fear of gaining weight. Remember, I am not anorexic or bulimic. I eat anything I want and don't restrict myself because I know that I should from a young age but it doesn't mean I dont feel this way. Thanks!