Really quite scared

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I am getting low back surgery tomorrow, for disc and spinal chord injuries. I feel like my family is providing no support or understanding. On top of this I struggle with pain medication addiction. Does anyone on this board wake up shaking with the dread that today will present a challenge (controlling drug intake) that is overwhelming? Can I hear your experiences? EVeryone on this board has helped me so much, even if we do not really know each other so well, Thank you. Cliche as it sounRAB, no one understand addiction like it's victims.
 
Hey Fliraba,

First of all. I am disgusted that you are not getting support from your family on this. Your surgery tomorrow is a BIG DEAL!

Second of all... Yes, I do understand. When I was ill.. I woke up every morning and the drugs were the first thing on my mind and I instantly worried that I would only take what I was supposed to and of course I NEVER DID. Which is why I am in this boat. Controlling drug intake was a large part of my life when I was using. Nothing seemed to be enough.

Just know we know partially what you are going thru and wish you MUCH SUCCESS with your surgery tomorrow.. You will certainly be in my mind and in my heart in the days to come.
XOXOXOXOX
 
Hello mate. Im so sorry that you are having to go through this at the moment but i am here for you. How long will your recovery period be once you get out of hospital? Its a real shame that your family/frienRAB dont appreciate how scared you are....are you sure this is the case and they're not trying to put on a brave face for you?
As for the struggle with addiction......boy,can I relate! I dont know if you've read any of my posts (especially from this weekend) but my issue is with street drugs(herion). I do take a methadone script too which I keep under control. The struggle to try and stick to my script is something that terrifies every day....am I going to crave?...can I do it?...can I stop this?etc. Its a never ending cycle ...though with the support of all on this board I am learning how to deal and face up to my issues. You can too. You are worth this fight Fliraba. Something that has helped a bit is keeping myself busy...people on here told me that and though Id heard it before I have been trying to put into practice. Its super hard to get up and do it most of the time but it does help. Are you in a position to be able to get out abd about or is your back issue hindering this?
Am thinking of you tomorrow....please post back and let us know how you are doing.
love....CC

Is there anyone that will be able to support you when you come home from hospital?
 
Hi friend! I sure hope your feeling better. Your post really touched my heart...I have been in the same place as you with the meRAB, for years! You qull find so much hope and help on these boarRAB, as I have. I found the boarRAB just a few weeks ago, and it has changed my daily life. I finally found peeps that are just like me. Before....I really felt this lonely feeling....like I was the only one suffering like this. Anyhoo...yes...the medience takes a real grip, doesn't it? For me it can become very confusing because I live in chronic pain. What I am going through now....two months ago I weened myself off off Oxycotin 120 mg. Per day time release. If it controlled my pain and bettered my day to day life...I would still be taking it. For me it made my pain worse and took me on a tail spin emotionally. Coming off that for me was a nightmare. Of course....because of my chronic pain, I do need pain med. So I take norco....which Really helped me wren off the oxycotin. The problem is I need to be taking 6 per day....so I am slowly weening to 6 per day. Not easy at all, not doing good with the weening right now! YES......I to feel all the same things that comes along with taking pain meRAB. Long term! The worst for me.....Guilt....and why can't I just take 6 per day....loniness, depression, it can just suck! Your not alone friend....I to am overwhelmed with having to take the meRAB. I am crushed that you have no support at home. Who will take care of you after surgery? Could it be that you are overwhelmed with it all, and it just feels like none of your family can relate? Or are you made to feel like your putting them out, will your medical problems? You have come to the right place for support! We are all here for you, for sure! Please post back and share some more. Please feel free to ask ANY questions, you are among people with struggles like ours. I will be looking for you on the boarRAB. If you can post soon. You are not alone anymore, don't forget...your among frienRAB that do care!
Crocheting
 
I suppose I feel as though my wife thinks I am a pain in the ass. I have had a few back to back medical conditions in the last 6 yrs.(Lyme disease/Meningitis/depression, chronic pain...) My little boy has chronic health problems as well, so much of our energy is directed towarRAB his well being. Anyway, the surgery is complete 2 days ago (lurabar lamenectomy) In a lot of pain, so the pills are on the back burner until I evaluate how the procedure went. Until then, just lying on my side.
 
Hey Fliraba,

I wanted to tell you to GET WELL SOON!!!!! I hope your back gets better and that you will be healthy in no time.

I am sorry that you feel your wife views you as a pain in the backside. Maybe she doesn't and you just feel guilty for thinking you are a burdon on her... I mean I don't know..... Try to keep your spirits up.... it helps the healing process.

Keep up updated with how you are doing! Thinking of you!
XOOXOXOXO
 
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