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sweetygirl82
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i give up on finding someone who i love and will love me in return. it is a very sad thing, what is even sadder is that i never planned for life after high school cause, i never felt like i would live long enough to need too. So now what ;i dont want to study (college)and i have already have a good job . So what to do now,cause since i was fourteen i been wanting to be happily married in a realistic way that is /was my only goal to be a good wife and adore my loving husband. I have been hoping & praying since 14 ,now 26 Now I feel like what to live for now ! I am living life and trying to cope with being forced into living life alone, I have no friends , no boyfriend , cause i will not give up the panties nor kiss before marriage, i dont drink or club or smoke. I grew up in a very bad area and still never drank nor did any drugs.I believe in God and the Bible but am not associated with any religon, so pls dont suggest a religous group . I feel like damn what is there to live for ,cause when i die i feel like no one ever known me in this life and way God give me life if i cant touch anybodies life. Why is my life so lonely, i live a strict lifestyle and not willing to live any other way. I am some what open -minded about people and their preferences. Iam very pretty , i get that alot. i pray there has to be someone out there for me. I am giving it until feb 29,2009 and if no one comes to me by then i will not consider marriage and never date again. I am 26 years old female, and feel like it is totally disrepect from most males, also i am unfortunately becoming bitter.