I've been dealing with these thoughts for the last couple of weeks now, and it's really beginning to freak me out...I completely support the LBGT community and all that they do, but I've never until recently considered the thought that I might be bisexual.
It started earlier this fall, when I noticed an extremely beautiful girl in my Calculus class. I do not know this girl at all, but it feels like I'm enamored of her or something, she's just so...pretty. I can't stop looking at her. I feel so creepy!
This is pretty much the first time I've had anything like this happen to me. I've encountered lots of pretty girls before, and thought nothing of it...The thought of doing anything REALLY sexual with a girl (anything beyond kissing and light feeling) isn't huge a turn on, but the idea of a relationship with a girl does sort of intrigue me.
Since this, I've been beginning to notice how many other really pretty girls I'm surrounded by, and I'm overcome with this strange feeling, like I really want to be their friend and get to know them or something, it seems so strange. I've never had any sort of attraction to my close friends, but rather girls I don't know at all.
I've considered the idea that perhaps I simply admire these girls (a harmless girl crush!), but I'm still bothered by the fact that I might be questioning my sexuality...I have a boyfriend whom I'm very much in love with, and I don't think he would be bothered by the idea that I might be bisexual (he might even kind of enjoy it), but at the same time, I feel like I'd be questioning our relationship or something.
I've also been beginning to consider how much my life would change if I was, in fact, bisexual...I wouldn't know how to come out to my friends, or my family, and I feel like people would treat me so differently, stop hanging out with me because they're freaked out by it, or spread rumors about me. The idea, to be honest, scares me a little bit...
I've checked out some online resources, but they haven't exactly been much help...I haven't mentioned this to anyone, because I feel like there's no one that I can honestly talk to about it...I feel so alone, and so scared.
I need some honest, nonjudgmental opinions, and advice on what I should do...Please?
And thank you, in advance for your time and care.
It started earlier this fall, when I noticed an extremely beautiful girl in my Calculus class. I do not know this girl at all, but it feels like I'm enamored of her or something, she's just so...pretty. I can't stop looking at her. I feel so creepy!
This is pretty much the first time I've had anything like this happen to me. I've encountered lots of pretty girls before, and thought nothing of it...The thought of doing anything REALLY sexual with a girl (anything beyond kissing and light feeling) isn't huge a turn on, but the idea of a relationship with a girl does sort of intrigue me.
Since this, I've been beginning to notice how many other really pretty girls I'm surrounded by, and I'm overcome with this strange feeling, like I really want to be their friend and get to know them or something, it seems so strange. I've never had any sort of attraction to my close friends, but rather girls I don't know at all.
I've considered the idea that perhaps I simply admire these girls (a harmless girl crush!), but I'm still bothered by the fact that I might be questioning my sexuality...I have a boyfriend whom I'm very much in love with, and I don't think he would be bothered by the idea that I might be bisexual (he might even kind of enjoy it), but at the same time, I feel like I'd be questioning our relationship or something.
I've also been beginning to consider how much my life would change if I was, in fact, bisexual...I wouldn't know how to come out to my friends, or my family, and I feel like people would treat me so differently, stop hanging out with me because they're freaked out by it, or spread rumors about me. The idea, to be honest, scares me a little bit...
I've checked out some online resources, but they haven't exactly been much help...I haven't mentioned this to anyone, because I feel like there's no one that I can honestly talk to about it...I feel so alone, and so scared.
I need some honest, nonjudgmental opinions, and advice on what I should do...Please?
And thank you, in advance for your time and care.