C
Chris
Guest
Bittersweet Ending
I walk around daily, always depressed
Distracted by thoughts, which have me obsessed
My mind's always racing, faster than light
I walk away from the pen, yet continue to write
If it's not on paper, it dwells in my mind
The answers I long for, are so hard to find
I wish it were easy to forget then move on
But something inside says my feelings aren't gone
Dammit to hell, I wish I didn't care
No matter what's said, the feelings are there
It's not that I want them, they just will not fade
I try not to show them, so into my mind, I escape
When I am with you, I'm afraid to speak
My heart, although strong, at times can be weak
I'm afraid that I'll slip, and say how I care
But those thoughts that I have, shouldn't be there
So I'll leave your presence, to pick up a pen
I write down my thoughts, between now and then
Pouring out ink, like blood from my heart
I want to skip to the end, before I can start
Like oncoming traffic, my mind races fast
There's so much detail, how long will this last?
I write and I write, I just can't look away
I block out some thoughts, yet they still remain
I've had It, i'm done, let me burn every page
There's so much emotion, what's behind it, is rage
I know that you're sickened by what lies in my head
Trust that i'm sorry, for the things that i've said
I listen to your stories, every last problem
It's not my obligation, to stay here to solve them
But I still pay attention and listen real closely
I say i'm your friend, but you don't really know me
Every word that you speak, cuts me right down
I refuse to inform you, and I don't make a sound
You talk about loss and dealing with pain
If I were to be honest, i'd say we're the same
For my heart cries out, but you wouldn't understand
Because your heart cries out, for some other man
Inside I am broken, but I won't let it show
From a logical perspective, i'm forced to let go
You long for his love, but he's with someone else
The best I can offer is simply myself
But that's not enough, as you have stated
I'm not boyfriend material, it's like we're related
You take me for granted, say we are friends
But this sick road of fate, has all sorts of bends
If I were a jerk, i'd say, “Drown in your sorrow.”
I wouldn't give a damn, today or tomorrow
I'd be well on my way, and I wouldn't give a fuck
Your heart's broken, oh i'm sorry, tough luck
It's not my problem, so why should I care
Life's a bitch, we all know, it's not fair
Well i'm sorry to say, but that just isn't me
I'm a caring friend, as you can see
You have a tough life, that's why i'm here
You can cry on my shoulder, release every tear
I wish I could fix this, releave you of pain
All I can do is stand here, with nothing to gain
I wish it were me, that you truly desired
Cause i'd stand by your side, and never retire
I'd take hold of your hands make everything right
But that's unrealistic, quite far out of sight
I'm simply your friend and that's all I will be
Because the man that you love, will never be me
I'm sorry you're broken, by fates twisted road
Life's cruel and unfair, trust me, I know
I'll stand by your side, of course, none the less
I didn't walk away, but gave you my best
I'm sorry I couldn't do more than that...
I walk around daily, always depressed
Distracted by thoughts, which have me obsessed
My mind's always racing, faster than light
I walk away from the pen, yet continue to write
If it's not on paper, it dwells in my mind
The answers I long for, are so hard to find
I wish it were easy to forget then move on
But something inside says my feelings aren't gone
Dammit to hell, I wish I didn't care
No matter what's said, the feelings are there
It's not that I want them, they just will not fade
I try not to show them, so into my mind, I escape
When I am with you, I'm afraid to speak
My heart, although strong, at times can be weak
I'm afraid that I'll slip, and say how I care
But those thoughts that I have, shouldn't be there
So I'll leave your presence, to pick up a pen
I write down my thoughts, between now and then
Pouring out ink, like blood from my heart
I want to skip to the end, before I can start
Like oncoming traffic, my mind races fast
There's so much detail, how long will this last?
I write and I write, I just can't look away
I block out some thoughts, yet they still remain
I've had It, i'm done, let me burn every page
There's so much emotion, what's behind it, is rage
I know that you're sickened by what lies in my head
Trust that i'm sorry, for the things that i've said
I listen to your stories, every last problem
It's not my obligation, to stay here to solve them
But I still pay attention and listen real closely
I say i'm your friend, but you don't really know me
Every word that you speak, cuts me right down
I refuse to inform you, and I don't make a sound
You talk about loss and dealing with pain
If I were to be honest, i'd say we're the same
For my heart cries out, but you wouldn't understand
Because your heart cries out, for some other man
Inside I am broken, but I won't let it show
From a logical perspective, i'm forced to let go
You long for his love, but he's with someone else
The best I can offer is simply myself
But that's not enough, as you have stated
I'm not boyfriend material, it's like we're related
You take me for granted, say we are friends
But this sick road of fate, has all sorts of bends
If I were a jerk, i'd say, “Drown in your sorrow.”
I wouldn't give a damn, today or tomorrow
I'd be well on my way, and I wouldn't give a fuck
Your heart's broken, oh i'm sorry, tough luck
It's not my problem, so why should I care
Life's a bitch, we all know, it's not fair
Well i'm sorry to say, but that just isn't me
I'm a caring friend, as you can see
You have a tough life, that's why i'm here
You can cry on my shoulder, release every tear
I wish I could fix this, releave you of pain
All I can do is stand here, with nothing to gain
I wish it were me, that you truly desired
Cause i'd stand by your side, and never retire
I'd take hold of your hands make everything right
But that's unrealistic, quite far out of sight
I'm simply your friend and that's all I will be
Because the man that you love, will never be me
I'm sorry you're broken, by fates twisted road
Life's cruel and unfair, trust me, I know
I'll stand by your side, of course, none the less
I didn't walk away, but gave you my best
I'm sorry I couldn't do more than that...