Okay, a lot of you have probably seen me post on here before. I post rate me questions on here probably about 5-20 times a day. This is excessive and indicated a problem, yes. I at first told myself it was just for a confidence boost but then I realized I had to keep posting and posting to get the results I needed to hear.
I have always had self-esteem issues growing up (had anorexia, BDD, you name it) because (I think) of my perfectionist father who always critiqued me and my mother. I was also always compared to my cousin who was beautiful and me not. I was a very jealous kid.
Now, I dated this guy over the summer who is in essence someone almost perfect, someone I looked up to--professional dancer, artist, driven, successful, smart, cute, built, etcc.. and I was his rebound. I ended things with him b/c he wouldn't make me official and a day after I broke things off he started dating his beautiful friend, week later made her official and have been for 5 months.
I feel so unworthy, jealous of him, jealous of her, jealous they both have what I never had have ( a great relationship). How do I feel better about myself and get over this jealousy? I feel like such a messed up, horrible person. I feel like I'll never be good enough for anyone. I proved people wrong, I lost weight so I was no longer chubby, I went from being the stupid kid to getting into a fantastic university, and for awhile I liked myself. But I lkeep being rejected.
I have always had self-esteem issues growing up (had anorexia, BDD, you name it) because (I think) of my perfectionist father who always critiqued me and my mother. I was also always compared to my cousin who was beautiful and me not. I was a very jealous kid.
Now, I dated this guy over the summer who is in essence someone almost perfect, someone I looked up to--professional dancer, artist, driven, successful, smart, cute, built, etcc.. and I was his rebound. I ended things with him b/c he wouldn't make me official and a day after I broke things off he started dating his beautiful friend, week later made her official and have been for 5 months.
I feel so unworthy, jealous of him, jealous of her, jealous they both have what I never had have ( a great relationship). How do I feel better about myself and get over this jealousy? I feel like such a messed up, horrible person. I feel like I'll never be good enough for anyone. I proved people wrong, I lost weight so I was no longer chubby, I went from being the stupid kid to getting into a fantastic university, and for awhile I liked myself. But I lkeep being rejected.