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StoneWeevil
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I'm young, 16 and I recently transferred into a new early college(much more advanced school) etc. In my old school, it was very easy so I often had A's. In this new school, I'm passing but with the grades of a mediocre students. I'm very social at school, and seem to be living a normal 'teen social life' I just don't drink or do drugs... But my parents are saying that I have an attitude problem (and I really really dont!!!!) I have a very irritable father, and a very stupid stepmom who does everything he says diligently, and he practically works her as a housemaid. Everytime I make a 'face' which is just me not smiling they get angry; I barely say 'no' to anything anymore because I don't want anything to happen. Then they give me the guilt trip if I seem to react negatively to something. I know that I'm an irresponsible kid, going through some school troubles, but I know when something isn't right. I can't pull them to the side to talk with them because they often jump to conclusions or prefer to believe one or the other. I am deeply frustrated from being misunderstood and blamed, and bullied, and having someone else's frustration taken out on me... and they're just two people!!! I am honestly not a very typical teenager when it comes to how I think, I settle thing rationally, I'm calm, and I know when I'm wrong. An example, is when my mom and I were arguing I said "Okay I'm wrong, you win. And I'm sorry" she still got angry because I handled it that well; thats when I knew she wanted me to be angry, but instead she said "Fine!" and stormed off like a child. And when my dad gets wind of what i "did" from my mom, I get called into his bedroom where he's like "Why are you doing this?" and treats me terribly at dinner, teasing me, or saying how much of a dirty pig I am, with my mood swings. I don't get mood swings! I know when I'm mad, sad, happy! Because I think too much to burst into mood swings! I've lost my self confidence, I'm paranoid because I can hear when they talk about me, and I apply it to my outside life. I have no self esteem, and I can't think clearly anymore, I don't want my dad to be unhappy so I don't decide to make rash decisions such as bursting into the room to confront them. I honestly don't want to hurt them, I just want it to stop. I have lots of friends, caring, funny, GOOD friends! so I know that I must be doing something right. My parents don't hit me, but they replace it with teasing and teasing. I'm spoiled so I blame myself for a lot of things, that I know I shouldn't blame myself for, but I still do. You know, I just don't know now, I don't want to give up and I'm never going to, but I just want to know why this happens, or if I'm just being a bitchly little immature brat. I just want to KNOW if I'm wrong and should think differently for doing so. Thank you