SenselessSurroundings
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I'm 18 (female), and I've been suffering from intense bouts of anger, aggression, hostility etc. I can be very defensive. I have horrendous mood swings, I'm either angry or melancholy or despairing or feel nothing, don't care about anything, and these mood swings can change from day to day, or in a matter of hours or minutes?
I find having relationships with friends and family very traumatizing, I either feel insecure that I like them more that they like me, or I will resent them for being dominant and feel like they aren't good for me, and I've had various friendships that come and go due to these changes in attitude. I feel like people are only pretending to like me, I feel paranoid that they are using me, or talking about me, or conspiring against me, but then sometimes I can be so loving and attached to them???
I feel like I don't know what my true personality is because I'm constantly changing my mind about things, and I rely on people to help me make decisions because I'm really indecisive. I also get terrible anxiety, If I'm in a social situation I don't want to talk to anyone new, I don't like it if they come and try and start conversation, I just freeze up and don't talk and i like...tremble? but I try really hard to stop, but I cant, sometimes I get so anxious that I feel sick.
The only other thing is over the past week Ive been finding it really hard to get to sleep, I feel very scared of silence, and My mind I think plays tricks on me cause I hear things, not like hallucinations I don't think, but like strange music, people shouting, but only in my mind, not...aloud.
Is anyone else familiar with feeling like this?
Does anyone know what I should do?It's been going on...probably for a good 6 months.
Thanks.
Sorry It's kind've long.
Ok, Well no I'm not on any other medication or contraception. As far as recreational drugs, I go out at the weekend, have a few drinks, I smoke occasionally, but I'm not addicted to either.
I will try and get to a doctor or GP asap, But I am living abroad at the moment, in the process of moving back to the UK.
I just am trying to get an idea of if it might be symptoms of anything specific, so that I know what to expect.
Thanks for the advice so far.
I find having relationships with friends and family very traumatizing, I either feel insecure that I like them more that they like me, or I will resent them for being dominant and feel like they aren't good for me, and I've had various friendships that come and go due to these changes in attitude. I feel like people are only pretending to like me, I feel paranoid that they are using me, or talking about me, or conspiring against me, but then sometimes I can be so loving and attached to them???
I feel like I don't know what my true personality is because I'm constantly changing my mind about things, and I rely on people to help me make decisions because I'm really indecisive. I also get terrible anxiety, If I'm in a social situation I don't want to talk to anyone new, I don't like it if they come and try and start conversation, I just freeze up and don't talk and i like...tremble? but I try really hard to stop, but I cant, sometimes I get so anxious that I feel sick.
The only other thing is over the past week Ive been finding it really hard to get to sleep, I feel very scared of silence, and My mind I think plays tricks on me cause I hear things, not like hallucinations I don't think, but like strange music, people shouting, but only in my mind, not...aloud.
Is anyone else familiar with feeling like this?
Does anyone know what I should do?It's been going on...probably for a good 6 months.
Thanks.
Sorry It's kind've long.
Ok, Well no I'm not on any other medication or contraception. As far as recreational drugs, I go out at the weekend, have a few drinks, I smoke occasionally, but I'm not addicted to either.
I will try and get to a doctor or GP asap, But I am living abroad at the moment, in the process of moving back to the UK.
I just am trying to get an idea of if it might be symptoms of anything specific, so that I know what to expect.
Thanks for the advice so far.