...is not available til Wednesday!? I’m 22, and depressed. I have reasons to be happy, I’m graduating college in December. I work for a public relations committee, tutor English, and do well in school, etc. People tell me I’m nice and pretty and seem to like me, I smile and talk to everyone I walk past, BUT I’m lonely and depressed as anything. I haven’t had a boyfriend in three years, and every guy I like now just wants to “have fun” and doesn’t want a relationship. I really like this guy from school whom I’ve been close friends with for a year, but he tell me he’s not the “girlfriend type,” and seeing him all the time knowing we can’t be more than friends (he’d be fine being friends with benefits, but I don’t want that), just shatters my heart. Even our friendship has had a rift in it recently due to petty arguments and little things, making me feel worse.
I’ve tried filling in the void by establishing a loving relationship with myself, enjoying my qualities and accomplishments, and improving my flaws to become a better person. I exercise, watch the show Friends (haha), busy myself in studies and work to keep busy, but they only work temporarily in helping me feel better. But, the void just will not go away, and loneliness continues to just make me sad every night, no matter what I do to keep entertained and busy. I hate that I don’t have anyone to share my joys and sorrows with. What is success if there’s no one to share it with?
It’s not just emotional, and I promise I’m not exaggerating, but I feel like I’m slowly DYING. I dealt with loneliness somehow for three years, but it’s starting to hurt so deeply deep down in my heart that my chest just feels tight all the time. I’m constantly tired and never want to get out bed, but I don’t want to sleep either. I don’t have MANY friends, but two very close ones, but they both have boyfriends and always around to talk to. I don’t know what to do. Is it possible for your health to deteriorate from loneliness? I feel like something’s started to go wrong in my body. I know babies have been known to die from not being loved, hugged, or cuddled enough, can that happen to grown ups too?
I’ve tried filling in the void by establishing a loving relationship with myself, enjoying my qualities and accomplishments, and improving my flaws to become a better person. I exercise, watch the show Friends (haha), busy myself in studies and work to keep busy, but they only work temporarily in helping me feel better. But, the void just will not go away, and loneliness continues to just make me sad every night, no matter what I do to keep entertained and busy. I hate that I don’t have anyone to share my joys and sorrows with. What is success if there’s no one to share it with?
It’s not just emotional, and I promise I’m not exaggerating, but I feel like I’m slowly DYING. I dealt with loneliness somehow for three years, but it’s starting to hurt so deeply deep down in my heart that my chest just feels tight all the time. I’m constantly tired and never want to get out bed, but I don’t want to sleep either. I don’t have MANY friends, but two very close ones, but they both have boyfriends and always around to talk to. I don’t know what to do. Is it possible for your health to deteriorate from loneliness? I feel like something’s started to go wrong in my body. I know babies have been known to die from not being loved, hugged, or cuddled enough, can that happen to grown ups too?