BPDfallingapart
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I need help.
I can honestly tell everyone, I am fudging ugly okay ?? Ya'll haven't seen me, so don't tell me I'm not.
Let me paint a picture for you though:
Dark brown, almost looks like Mississippi mud kinda brown, hair.
My eyes are some kind of **** color, mostly drabby brown.
I have lost all of my curves (I don't know how), I weight 135 lbs, and I am 5'3?. I have very small, just barely C-cup boobs, and my legs, I don't even know how to describe them.
I am so gross that I can take so much flab in my hand it doesn't even all fit.
My friends say I look fine... But they haven't looked in the mirror lately. They are GORGEOUS, they have the tan body, the perfect teeth, the perfect hair. They have the best clothes, and the latest shoes. They are so skinny... Skinny and beautiful, unlike me. I look at pictures of us together, and now I just fold myself back so I can see only them.
Me ? I'm the outcast. I tan every summer, and only lose it in the winter, where I become pale again. My teeth look weird, I don't even smile with them anymore. My hair, I have already stated. The clothes and latest shoes ?? Ha, as if !! It's all Goodwill and every other thrift store, if it's not a hand me down. And skinny... That I could prove I am not.
I am about ready to just like cut the fucking flab off my stomach. (the only stopper is the fact I would going to die that way.)
My boyfriend I just resently got with told me about his ex, who was his first love. How perfect she sounds. Blue eyes, long, beautiful brown hair, not a thing like mine. She was skinny, and had the curves in all the right places. Her teeth were perfect, her skin like velvet, she didn't have any blemishes. Her legs, "Saying they were perfect was an understatement" (quoted from him.) and her butt was great. And her boobs, well they definately seem bigger than mine. She was, quite literally, a super model.
And I don't know how to live up to that !!I mean, it's hard for the flawless to be beaten by the flawed. She seems like she's perfect, she is someone that he deserves. And me ??..... No way. I will never amount to her. Or anyone for that matter.
Help...
He says that I have bad breth too, and I brush my teeth three times a day !!
Help me find ways to change, please !! I am begging you !!)': Anything !!)'X
-bawling-
I can honestly tell everyone, I am fudging ugly okay ?? Ya'll haven't seen me, so don't tell me I'm not.
Let me paint a picture for you though:
Dark brown, almost looks like Mississippi mud kinda brown, hair.
My eyes are some kind of **** color, mostly drabby brown.
I have lost all of my curves (I don't know how), I weight 135 lbs, and I am 5'3?. I have very small, just barely C-cup boobs, and my legs, I don't even know how to describe them.
I am so gross that I can take so much flab in my hand it doesn't even all fit.
My friends say I look fine... But they haven't looked in the mirror lately. They are GORGEOUS, they have the tan body, the perfect teeth, the perfect hair. They have the best clothes, and the latest shoes. They are so skinny... Skinny and beautiful, unlike me. I look at pictures of us together, and now I just fold myself back so I can see only them.
Me ? I'm the outcast. I tan every summer, and only lose it in the winter, where I become pale again. My teeth look weird, I don't even smile with them anymore. My hair, I have already stated. The clothes and latest shoes ?? Ha, as if !! It's all Goodwill and every other thrift store, if it's not a hand me down. And skinny... That I could prove I am not.
I am about ready to just like cut the fucking flab off my stomach. (the only stopper is the fact I would going to die that way.)
My boyfriend I just resently got with told me about his ex, who was his first love. How perfect she sounds. Blue eyes, long, beautiful brown hair, not a thing like mine. She was skinny, and had the curves in all the right places. Her teeth were perfect, her skin like velvet, she didn't have any blemishes. Her legs, "Saying they were perfect was an understatement" (quoted from him.) and her butt was great. And her boobs, well they definately seem bigger than mine. She was, quite literally, a super model.
And I don't know how to live up to that !!I mean, it's hard for the flawless to be beaten by the flawed. She seems like she's perfect, she is someone that he deserves. And me ??..... No way. I will never amount to her. Or anyone for that matter.
Help...
He says that I have bad breth too, and I brush my teeth three times a day !!
Help me find ways to change, please !! I am begging you !!)': Anything !!)'X
-bawling-