...feelings for him...?!?!? Ok, so I have this best friend, Kevin... We're both 17, and we've been friends since we were 4. We're extremely close... like, nobody even understands how close we are. He knows me better than anyone else... even my own parents. Well, he's slept over my house a TON since we became friends, (on the couch in my room, but usually ends up falling asleep in my bed with me watching tv) and my mom trusts us. A few months ago, Kevin told me that he thought he might be gay, and I was fine with it; I have no problem with homosexuals. Well, he's really into singing and recording, and on Saturday night, he was sleeping over, and we were up in my room, and he showed me his new song, and it had this really strong beat and kind of suggestive lyrics. Now, I've NEVER had any sexual feelings towards him, but that song turned me on. I wanted him; bad (lol.)
He asked me what I thought, and I said "I'm thinking if you weren't gay, I would be on top of you right now..." and laughed (and yeah, I felt comfortable saying that to him anyways, because it could've been interpreted as joking.) He responded "Well I'm thinking I'm bi, because I would thoroughly enjoy that," and smiled at me. So I said "Seriously?" He nodded, and I moved closer to him, like almost on his lap, and kissed him on the lips, and then raised my eyebrows and said "Yeah?" And he nodded, and starting kissing me. I climbed onto his lap, and he pulled off my shirt... one thing led to another, and we actually ended up having sex... like REALLY amazing sex.
Afterwards, it was a bit weird, but we're fine, because we're super close. Well, after that, we had sex three more times throughout this week... and every time it's really amazing.
Well, I never had any of these kinds of feelings for him before, but since Saturday, I've been thinking that even though now I have this sexual attraction to him, I wouldn't want to officially date him... just because I thought that even though I love him (as my best friend), I could never be IN love with him... But some people have said that I should try dating him because it could be really amazing... Well, today, we had sex for the fifth time, and keeping what everyone said in mind during it, I now think I could be in love with him (As in: I might be, NOW.) I don't know what he'd think about dating, though... I mean, I know he likes the sex, because he's initiated it 3 of the 5 times, but I'm not sure if he's feeling how I was about dating, at first. I'm just so confused about my feelings for him, and vice versa. What should I do? I'm afraid to ask him if he'd want to date, in case he just likes the sex, but wants to stay my best friend, and that's it... That would just be awkward if he knew I had been having feelings for him during sex, while he wasn't. So what do I do? What do you think he's feeling? I'm so confused... please give me any advice you can...
P.S.- I really don't want to be "friends with benefits." I feel like that could turn into a bad situation in the future... I don't know...
He asked me what I thought, and I said "I'm thinking if you weren't gay, I would be on top of you right now..." and laughed (and yeah, I felt comfortable saying that to him anyways, because it could've been interpreted as joking.) He responded "Well I'm thinking I'm bi, because I would thoroughly enjoy that," and smiled at me. So I said "Seriously?" He nodded, and I moved closer to him, like almost on his lap, and kissed him on the lips, and then raised my eyebrows and said "Yeah?" And he nodded, and starting kissing me. I climbed onto his lap, and he pulled off my shirt... one thing led to another, and we actually ended up having sex... like REALLY amazing sex.
Afterwards, it was a bit weird, but we're fine, because we're super close. Well, after that, we had sex three more times throughout this week... and every time it's really amazing.
Well, I never had any of these kinds of feelings for him before, but since Saturday, I've been thinking that even though now I have this sexual attraction to him, I wouldn't want to officially date him... just because I thought that even though I love him (as my best friend), I could never be IN love with him... But some people have said that I should try dating him because it could be really amazing... Well, today, we had sex for the fifth time, and keeping what everyone said in mind during it, I now think I could be in love with him (As in: I might be, NOW.) I don't know what he'd think about dating, though... I mean, I know he likes the sex, because he's initiated it 3 of the 5 times, but I'm not sure if he's feeling how I was about dating, at first. I'm just so confused about my feelings for him, and vice versa. What should I do? I'm afraid to ask him if he'd want to date, in case he just likes the sex, but wants to stay my best friend, and that's it... That would just be awkward if he knew I had been having feelings for him during sex, while he wasn't. So what do I do? What do you think he's feeling? I'm so confused... please give me any advice you can...
P.S.- I really don't want to be "friends with benefits." I feel like that could turn into a bad situation in the future... I don't know...