PETER GRIFFIN
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I don't know what to do, Today I got into a physical fight with my mother while trying to stop her from yelling or hitting my sister and I told my sister to lock herself in the washroom and not open the door until she relaxed. My mother came after me like she wanted to take my life, and cornered me into the balcony where I ran to, because I was going to hop over onto the other side but I couldnt because it was raining and the rails were slippery so I let her just hit me, and she cornered me and I took anything I saw and starting throwing it at her, and she started to choke me so I grabbed a black of wood and tried not to hit her face just her hands but it hit her elbow and now its swollen but not broken...
I feel really sorry because I have always wanted a relationship with my mother but she never loves me, I once bought her flowers and she said to me that things don't heal with flowers that quickly, and I went to my room and cried.
I was diagnosed with hpv and I am now free of it a year ago, and it was the first time I had sex I caught it and she said I hope you have cancer.. and it was tough going through it by myself.. because they didn't know if i had sex or not, they still believe I'm a virgin, it was the first and last time I had sex.
I abuse, tynenol 3 by taking two a day, I stopped with that and now I moved with advil cold medicine.. I don't know why I do that, maybe it has something to do with my relationship.. I have a wonderful relationship with my father, my mother even verbally abuses my father. She tells all her friends what low lives we are and I'm only 17. I don't know how to feel anymore, I've done a lot for her but all she cares is how clean the house is and how tidy we keep it. I want to help her but she doesnt think my cleaning is good enough...
I really love her, but she doesn't love me
She defines love by how clean the house is, she doesn't show any sign of affection when I tell her I love her or hug her she tells me to get off because I'm "suffocating her"
also my mother married really young (17) she has an 8 year differnce with my father.. sometimes she does mention regretting getting married so young.
I feel really sorry because I have always wanted a relationship with my mother but she never loves me, I once bought her flowers and she said to me that things don't heal with flowers that quickly, and I went to my room and cried.
I was diagnosed with hpv and I am now free of it a year ago, and it was the first time I had sex I caught it and she said I hope you have cancer.. and it was tough going through it by myself.. because they didn't know if i had sex or not, they still believe I'm a virgin, it was the first and last time I had sex.
I abuse, tynenol 3 by taking two a day, I stopped with that and now I moved with advil cold medicine.. I don't know why I do that, maybe it has something to do with my relationship.. I have a wonderful relationship with my father, my mother even verbally abuses my father. She tells all her friends what low lives we are and I'm only 17. I don't know how to feel anymore, I've done a lot for her but all she cares is how clean the house is and how tidy we keep it. I want to help her but she doesnt think my cleaning is good enough...
I really love her, but she doesn't love me
She defines love by how clean the house is, she doesn't show any sign of affection when I tell her I love her or hug her she tells me to get off because I'm "suffocating her"
also my mother married really young (17) she has an 8 year differnce with my father.. sometimes she does mention regretting getting married so young.