Personal Question (NOT SEX SO !@#$% OFF)?

[wolf]

I ramble, but do get to point
I'm hoping have people respond respectfully, who are serious, and have had personal experience, whether first had or being with another like me. This regards Depression, Anxiety, and plain low selfesteem.
WARNING: this is not something I'm joking about. I can't deal with smart alec remarks. I'll report an answer if I feel that it inappropiate.
I'm sorry, but I've see soo many ask for help, just to be humilated by a creep. I'll not stand for it. Thank you and sorry

I am 20 years old. I have to live at home. My mother has crippling rheumatiod arthrutis and my Dad lost his job a couple of months again.
I work 40 hours on a nite shift. At the moment, most of my money is going toward food, gas, heat, car insurance, plus my bills.
I suffer from Anxiety, depression occassional, I've had severe chronic headaches since I was 11. Because of my fathers health plan (non existence) All the medications I have to take daily will bring me to approx. 2-300 a month.
I have 0 confidence in myself, at the moment, to motivation for anything. I tried to take a course that I knew I would love. I had to stop because I was getting too rundown for work, and I can't afford to miss it, and by the time I had time, I can't afford it any more.
I need out
I need school
I need confidence
I need to be able to look myself in the eye
I need to have MY life and be able to live for myself
I need to be free
But there are so many things I see in my way.

And so you know, I am not looking for cures for headaches or anything ike that. Alot of people suggest things about that when I bring it up. And I do really apprieciate their concern

Thank you

 

[Verona]

After college, I worked several part time jobs to help support my mother and brother. I was working 60+ hours a week. My mom lost her job when her employer closed. I still live at home and help out because my mom wouldn't be able to make it on her own. You do need to take time and find at least a hobby that you like....music, jogging, etc... so you do something for yourself.

 

[p_lyn79]

Your body is taking on more than your mind can handle. You have to take on the role as guardian for your parents and remain responsible for yourself. It is very hard for you, I know. To ease up on certain bills and funding. Check your local government to see if they have any elderly assistance programs. These programs are designed to assist the elderly when in need. Insurance, heat, gas, water, medication, food and sometimes rent/mortgage. You can not take care of yourself, your ailing mother and father alone. If you continue down the path your on now, you might start to think the world would be better without you and we don't want that to happen. By the way your headaches won't go away until you fix the problems in your life that is stressing you the heck out. Yes. your stress can cause your body to malfunction.

I Hope all goes well with you.
The world is a harsh place, Good Luck