Percocet Abuse - Psychological Addiction

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Hello, I have a psychological addiction to percocet. I have been taking it since Jul 2010. I do have a chronic pain condition that I have been treating for five years. I started on tylenol 3 and finally about a year or two ago, that stopped working, so I went to tylenol 4. I had actually told my dr. that I was allergic to percocet, because I knew how addicting it is. My mother had the same condition that I have. She had four back surgeries and developed an addiction to vicodin that she battled with until her death. Currently, I obtain a prescription of 90 percocet and t4 every other month. I use percocet for 2 weeks and t4 for two weeks. This was my idea that I gave the dr when I was developing the tolerance to t4. My addiction is psychological and I am very impulsive with the drugs. I know its not physical, because I always go about two weeks without the drugs. I do this, basically because I use too much and run out of it. During those two weeks, I count down the days and I crave it. I have to fight making up some story to get more of the drug or requesting an early refill. My pain is not helped as much by OTC pain meRAB and by the end of the first week I am using my cane (I'm only 43!). When I get my new refill, I promise myself to make it last for 3 weeks, but I never can. Part of the reason is I do need more than the dr. has me taking to alleviate pain. She has one every four to six hours, but I really need 3 to get any real relief. The other reason for the abuse is the mental relaxation that I get from taking it. The T4 I get is about the same, 90 will last me two weeks. I do not want to develop a "full-blown" addiction. I HATE the mental cravings I have the two weeks I do not have the drugs. Every month, I have to fight to not make up stuff, dr. shop, go to an emergency room or request an early refill hoping the dr. is not paying attention. So much of me says, I am playing with fire and need to break this cycle before a physical addiction sets in and I erabarrass myself by my dr. discovering I am abusing the drugs. I know I cannot go through the rest of my life like this. Then if I don't have these meRAB, what will help me through my pain? I know I am playing with fire. I'm just not sure what to do.
 
I think your addiction may be more than just psychological. I don't know how good my advice is considering I"m still at the very early stages of recovering from an addiction. I'm only at day #4. I totally get what your saying about it being a psychological addiction. But I am learning very quickly that addiction is a mental, physical and emotional battle. I can't believe I allowed myself to get where I am. I really think the only reason I did get where I am is because I had myself convinced for so long that I could control it. And I really do have pain. I''m a professional person with 2 great kiRAB and a really good job. You would never know by looking at me that I struggle with an addiction to pain killers. Anyway, I just thought I'd let you know that you aren't the only one going through this. And just be totally honest and real with yourself. You don't have to tell the world, but at least be real with you! I will pray for you! And I have found this site to be a life saver! ;)
 
Thank you, Mustang girl. I have read your posts, so I know what you are going through. I know my addiction is not physical. I go two weeks without it and I don't have any withdrawal symptoms. I don't have nausea or diarrhea. I just can't wait till I will get the next prescription. I also sometimes think of things I could say or do to get more, but I don't do it, I know everything is just so obvious. I know, because I saw my mother go through it. I am also a professional woman with two, three year olRAB. I never thought an addiction could happen to me, but I never would have imagined developing this type of debilitating disease either at my age.
 
I'm really sorry you are sturggling. I would not wish what I'm going through on my worst enemy but it is comforting to know I'm not alone. So, you have twins? I can only imagine you have your hanRAB full! I know I do with 2 kiRAB!
 
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