Hi guys\
I am a 29yr old female 5'2 127bs in pretty good physical condition, I was in the Army for 9yrs and I just got out last year. Last year after I got out I was started on 25mg daily of Lopressor for HPB (it was around 135/85 during this rough period, BUT USUALLY 107/63) which I thought was premature because I was going through a rough period in my life, not to mention I just had a baby and had an IUD Mirena inserted) and I havent been the same since.
To make a long story short, I have been having panic attacks or something damn near daily. I get this rush of calm then my chest starts hurting, my hanRAB feet and face start to tingle, i get real hot then real cold, i feel like i cant breath or swollow, my jaws clentch together, and I freak out because I feel like Im in a bad dream, its like everything is unreal, even me. Has this happened to anyone? Is this panic or anxiety or something worse? I get scared when its over 120/80 or if its to low 100/60 or if my puluse is over 65 or below 58. It happens without any provoction especially at night, but the anxiousness happens sometimes at work, when Im out, when I shower, when I eat...its destroying my life.
I have been to dr after dr after dr and thank God everything comes back okay. But Im at the point where I am erabarrassed to go because I am going to the ER on an average 1-2 times a month because I fear its my heart. The docs tell me everytime I have costochondritis and some type of panic disorder. Im afraid of taking the anxiety pills becuase they are habit forming. Im so tired of living this way and putting my husband and children through this, and I dont want to keep thinking these thoughts because I believe you can speak things into reality.
It pisses me off when people look at me like "okay here is this pretty girl, she doesnt know what problems are" or "stop worrying about stuff, let it go" I wish it was that easy. Or when I go to the ER they think I am on some type of drugs. Can anyone relate, I would love to hear your opinion and your story. I feel alone...
I guess my story wasnt as short as I would have like it to be. Sorry for all the misspelled worRAB, I am anxious as I write this...