On day 6, still ????

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Hi, yes I'm new have check this site out quit a lot, but never sign in Why fears, of the unknown. Well I'm there with a lot of people, I was taking a lot of lortabs for 10 years to much. As we know more and more ECT, The strange thing is it quite working for me you know that could do anything, carefree feeling WELL I lost that and then I just had me WOW I have stay off them this is #6 started the Thomas Receipt day 1, and just prayer to make it. The thing is around day 4 my anger, hopeless, pain kicked in BIG TIME and holder on for dear life. This fog and confusers I'm in does any one know how long this well hangs in. If any input please HELP ME, I do not want to go back, my life is a mess Yes a lot of self pity forgive me for that for now
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Hi, kay not cool:wave:, I also have been addicted to lorcets for over 10yrs and I know how you feel. It started out for back pain, then surgery, but I soon discovered how much I liked the energy and then it went to low feelings and taking them so I wouldn't wd. I became so ashamed of myself and so tired of letting pills run my life and everything I did. I had to have them to get up in the morning and to function thru the day, if there were holidays I thought I couldn't cook or get thru it without them. My family knows I take the pills, but have no idea how much or how often and I'm to ashamed to tell them. I have grandchildren and I would never want them or my sons to know how weak and disgusting I have become. I've went ct many times because I ran out and the wd was awful, but this time I did it because I wanted it more then anything in my life. I started out tapering, then went off many days ago, I quit counting the days I have been clean, because in a sick way I began to think if I could go so many days I could handle them and kind of reward myself and we all know that won't work. For me the mental part was worse than the physical wd, well after I got over them. My 7th day without was the worst for me, with all the feelings and after that it was no energy, but it is slowly coming back. We all feel sorry for ourselves, during this time so don't feel bad about that. I think you are doing great and kudos to you for your courage, well now I'm rarabling, but I do feel your pain and just wanted you to know I'm thinking about you and praying for you, this board has been a life saver for me, so keep posting. LOL, Fiesty
 
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Thank you so much for your kind worRAB and sharing with me. Like you it starts for the pain and after awhile it's the energy, high. Yes I made it to day 7!! Yesterday I made myself go for a walk and after a hot shower will do the same thing, I can't say how many times I thought about stopping but never did. My energy is 0- I have to say the mental state also is the hardest for me, all the people I let down, and all the other things that goes with that. I have became so disgusting with myself, I could not make that feeling go away, and man did I try. Well off for that walk short but, alleast I'm doing it. I do not know if others have gone though this but, I find it hard to talk to anyone, I walk and pray, will not answers calls, go around people, and some people I can not take a risk of seeing or talking to, catch 22 thing. No one knows what I'm doing except this wonderful site I found, once I get some time I found a support group but not now, I have a hard time with ME and MY MIND LOL
PEACE TO ALL
Thanks again for sharing and helping me on this journey
 
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