ok just got the worse news in my life other than my grandad gettin ill but...?

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im stupidly calm which can only mean that im going to do something stupid later, by calm i mean that i just broke mu cuboard and cant really bend my right hand but thats calm for me when im this angry. i dont want to do what im thinking of doin (not murder) so i need someones help, i know its vague im sorry but please if i hurt some random person ill feel so guilty