Not able to give up on the past?What do I do?

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I am in a very happy, satisfying and loving relationship. My boyfriend is a great guy, except when it comes to my past. Initially I had no problems with his past whatsoever. Frankly I didn't care till the time he was a good person with me. It's not like my past was insanely sinful, just a few crushes and that's all, but because he used to get so obsessed about it earlier, even I came to think about his doings before he met me.

We both are very conservative on things like drinking, fagging and watching of indecent stuff...He likes me to tell him the movie (The English ones) that I'm going to watch so that he can stop me if it contains inappropriate stuff(indecent, pornish like stuff as he doesn't want me to see it, and violent and gory stuff because I can't digest them.) And he IS caring and all that. He says he did watch some bits of porn once or twice before meeting me and I was fine with it till the time my past issues didn't pop up. But when he started raising questions on my past, I couldn't help but think of what all things he had done in the past. It got really annoying one day and we had a fight and when we finally resolved it, we decided and promised that we won't talk about each other's past life ever.

But then some time back I got to know from his chats(before meeting me) that he had suggested watching American Pie to someone saying that it's a nice sex comedy and that he watches it on a regular basis. I had no idea what it was till I came across it accidentally when my friend searched for it and out of gen curiosity even I watched the initial twenty minutes and that made me sick to the guts.

Whoever is reading this, please keep in mind the kind of people we are and the kind of relationship we have. We don't like such things around us and it deeply hurt me when I came to know that he was like this before. I found it even more disgusting than what I imagine porn would be.
I know we promised not to talk about our past ever again, and I know he is loyal and faithful to me and everything of that sort, but I still can't get the image of those twenty minutes out of my mind. It sucked, and I can't help but get upset. I don't want to talk about it to him as he has consecutive tests for the next three days and I don't want to disturb him as we're still in college.
Your suggestions and advices are welcomed :)
 
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