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CharBerry
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I finally acknowledged that I have a drug problem. To my boss of all people, which probably wasn't the smartest thing to do. But, he has had problems with pain meRAB and liquor and we've been together 23 yrs so he's more than a boss. I haven't talked to my shrink about this because I feel that I can do this on my own but will if I can't. The thing is that I have taken meRAB for ADD my entire life and took as directed until the last couple of years. I think after going thru meno (I'm 56 now) that I found myself not able to "keep up" with my work, house work, yard work and animals. So, I started taking a couple of more Dex a day to get thru the day. I have no problems sleeping (in fact very hard to get up) but I run out of meRAB before refill, which throws me into a panic and unable to do anything but sleep or stay in bed! I have gone thru this around 3 or 4 times a year since I was getting meRAB for 3 months at a time and would take a lot more in the beginning. I'm already up to the max dose of 6-10mg Dex Spans a day so can't ask Dr. for more. I've decided to only get 1 months supply at a time so that I won't have an abundance all at once, which is when I'm more likely to abuse. I don't think I'm actually addicted (do any of us?) but more so know that I abuse the meRAB on purpose. That is to get things done. I just have to take as prescribed and I think knowing that I only have 1 month script will keep me under control. I've often noticed that if I don't feel good some days that I will take more to no avail but in my head, think that they will give me more energy, which isn't the case. I know I need the med for my ADD. Not on them, I can't read a book or even watch a complete movie. Can't concentrate on my work and have NO motivation. Whereas I used to be hyper in my younger years (ADHD) I'm now ADD.
Any thoughts or advice on this method? Or has anyone else had a problem like this? I appreciate those that took the time to read and look forward to your support thru this journey.
Thanks,
Charla
Any thoughts or advice on this method? Or has anyone else had a problem like this? I appreciate those that took the time to read and look forward to your support thru this journey.
Thanks,
Charla