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noonetocome
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I need help and it seems even going to local community hospital to see a GP is a waste of time. (In the UK here)
I will cut a long story short and just blast out what's wrong with me.
I noticed I been ill for coming on 2 years now.
I have breathing problems where am short of breath which in turns gives me heart ache sometimes.
I worry sometimes.
I don't care about much.
I've lost my sense of humour, which makes it impossible for me to smile without forcing.
My arms ache.
I lost weight.
Am pale and look rough/older (frienRAB even said so before)
I don't eat properly.
I have lost all my muscle (I use to be pretty big as in big muscles not fat, even same work outs don't help)
I don't socialize.
I panic when near people (what I mean is when am near people my breathing goes funny and feel like am going to have heart attach/stroke and pass out.
I have abandoned all my frienRAB.
I have not seen day light properly for about 5 months due to me looking ill, rough and my panics around people.
I am not close to my family (only my sister who has been helping)
I don't have a job.
I don't sign on or have sick money (this is why I cant eat properly and don't have much food in)
I have spat blood before.
There is probably more, I could go on.
I have anxiety I know that and this makes everything worse however I do feel there is something worse wrong with me.
I got my sister to help she has been speaking to the hospital local to me. I spoke on the phone to a male doctor who was no help at all, before that I spoke to a female nurse and she was really helpful. (I am male) So I told my sister it's vital to get a female doctor to see me as they understand better (I can talk to females allot easier)
So we got an appointment but could not be with female doctor as I can't go out in the day time it was at 7pm uk time. When I got to hospital I waited outside untill my sister said they have called me in, I went in with my hud up on my huddy to make sure no one could see me in my state and did not have breathing problems and paniced and probably run out.
I went in male doctor (black guy) and I was expecting him to ask me questions etc, because of how I am I could not think properly and tell him everything (if I had known he was not going to ask me questions I would of wrote everything down)
So I told him some stuff about this and how I am and really all he wanted to know was how it started and what brought it on (I don't know myself it just come about out of no where) He said he never had a case like this and he could not understand it, he did not check my weight, or look at me properly or anything. I said I would like a blood test and said that will do and left.
Just one more thing, I said to the doctor is there anywhere I can get like sick money to help me out due to my situation so I can at least get some proper food in the house, and start eating properly, and he was like (laughing)" and said it's for really sick people and nothing he can do etc... Oh he also said it's normal if you spit blood sometimes, is that true??
I went out and gave my sister the documents for blood test and told her outside what a waste of time it was, and I need to see a female doctor for me to get help as they understand much better, so she got it sorted while I waited outside.
I have a blood test in 2 days, and an appointment for doctor next week. However now I have a big problem. I have a questionnaire I have filled out also which the doctor failed to give me which my sister got from the recipients on the way out.
The place is about 7 miles away. I don't have no money, my sister is pretty poor and she can't afford to pay for the taxi ( i cant get on bus as i will just have panic with my breathing) This one time I managed to get her to borrow me money. I have no way of getting any money to go to the blood test in 2 days, or go to see the female doctor next week, I can't borrow money of anyone or anything, so really my situation is bad and I can't get there any-more.
Am really disappointed in the doctor I went to see, I was hoping to get help and the facts are it was a waste of time. Making up this topic has took allot out of me now, I have an headache come on, and now I need to go away and have a drink and relax.
Apart from all this, I am not in a state where I want to kill myself at all or harm anyone at all, it's not like that.
Sorry if some of this don't make sense, it took allot to type this up....am really stuck now, we don't know what to do, I just wanted the doctor to to my house and help but that was not possible (it would make things so much easier...as right now it seems I have no help and I feel like I am not going to live for long due to my breathing and health situation)
Also sorry if this is posted in the wrong place, due to the various things wrong with me I can't figure out where this belongs...
I will cut a long story short and just blast out what's wrong with me.
I noticed I been ill for coming on 2 years now.
I have breathing problems where am short of breath which in turns gives me heart ache sometimes.
I worry sometimes.
I don't care about much.
I've lost my sense of humour, which makes it impossible for me to smile without forcing.
My arms ache.
I lost weight.
Am pale and look rough/older (frienRAB even said so before)
I don't eat properly.
I have lost all my muscle (I use to be pretty big as in big muscles not fat, even same work outs don't help)
I don't socialize.
I panic when near people (what I mean is when am near people my breathing goes funny and feel like am going to have heart attach/stroke and pass out.
I have abandoned all my frienRAB.
I have not seen day light properly for about 5 months due to me looking ill, rough and my panics around people.
I am not close to my family (only my sister who has been helping)
I don't have a job.
I don't sign on or have sick money (this is why I cant eat properly and don't have much food in)
I have spat blood before.
There is probably more, I could go on.
I have anxiety I know that and this makes everything worse however I do feel there is something worse wrong with me.
I got my sister to help she has been speaking to the hospital local to me. I spoke on the phone to a male doctor who was no help at all, before that I spoke to a female nurse and she was really helpful. (I am male) So I told my sister it's vital to get a female doctor to see me as they understand better (I can talk to females allot easier)
So we got an appointment but could not be with female doctor as I can't go out in the day time it was at 7pm uk time. When I got to hospital I waited outside untill my sister said they have called me in, I went in with my hud up on my huddy to make sure no one could see me in my state and did not have breathing problems and paniced and probably run out.
I went in male doctor (black guy) and I was expecting him to ask me questions etc, because of how I am I could not think properly and tell him everything (if I had known he was not going to ask me questions I would of wrote everything down)
So I told him some stuff about this and how I am and really all he wanted to know was how it started and what brought it on (I don't know myself it just come about out of no where) He said he never had a case like this and he could not understand it, he did not check my weight, or look at me properly or anything. I said I would like a blood test and said that will do and left.
Just one more thing, I said to the doctor is there anywhere I can get like sick money to help me out due to my situation so I can at least get some proper food in the house, and start eating properly, and he was like (laughing)" and said it's for really sick people and nothing he can do etc... Oh he also said it's normal if you spit blood sometimes, is that true??
I went out and gave my sister the documents for blood test and told her outside what a waste of time it was, and I need to see a female doctor for me to get help as they understand much better, so she got it sorted while I waited outside.
I have a blood test in 2 days, and an appointment for doctor next week. However now I have a big problem. I have a questionnaire I have filled out also which the doctor failed to give me which my sister got from the recipients on the way out.
The place is about 7 miles away. I don't have no money, my sister is pretty poor and she can't afford to pay for the taxi ( i cant get on bus as i will just have panic with my breathing) This one time I managed to get her to borrow me money. I have no way of getting any money to go to the blood test in 2 days, or go to see the female doctor next week, I can't borrow money of anyone or anything, so really my situation is bad and I can't get there any-more.
Am really disappointed in the doctor I went to see, I was hoping to get help and the facts are it was a waste of time. Making up this topic has took allot out of me now, I have an headache come on, and now I need to go away and have a drink and relax.
Apart from all this, I am not in a state where I want to kill myself at all or harm anyone at all, it's not like that.
Sorry if some of this don't make sense, it took allot to type this up....am really stuck now, we don't know what to do, I just wanted the doctor to to my house and help but that was not possible (it would make things so much easier...as right now it seems I have no help and I feel like I am not going to live for long due to my breathing and health situation)
Also sorry if this is posted in the wrong place, due to the various things wrong with me I can't figure out where this belongs...