Need opinions pronto.?

[Krysta]

Okay, I just need someone to listen and if you have somethign to say, say it and if you dont, fine. Anyway, here's thing i need opinions on: You see, my mom is like crippled and cant really do anything. SO...i have to get up about every 5 minutes and go do something for her. It's got to a point where she annoys me so much i could scream. Sometimes i even think i hear her call my name and go in there and she hadn't said a word. Another thing is...my parents have their expectations WAY too high for me. They expect me to be a person that gets all A's and is all perfect. Lately, my english grade went down to a F. They kept telling me how i'm never going to get to college and how im going end up working at a fastfood restraunt like Burger King if even that. They don't seem to realise how much that really hurts me. Im a very emotional person, but i hide it alot behind my fake smile and "i dont give a shit" attitude. I know thats probably not good for my personal family relationship, but it comes naturally for me to do. I just feel so overwhelmed by it and everything else. I just can't seem to admit to myself that maybe it's all my fault. my fault that im such a disappointment to my parents. my fault that I have repetitive emotional and nervous breakdowns every few months. I never do anything about it of course because they soon pass and im alright. but i just dont know what to do. I know i sound depressed and shit, but trust me im not. some people think im suisidal because of the things i say, but if i were suisidal i wouldn't still be alive. just saying, but im not. dont want to be. i really just dont know what to do. I don't want to talk to my parents about it. they wouldn't understand. they never do. i don't talk to my friends about it either. it just isn't something i feel comfortable telling them about. I know thats really funny shit. that i'd rather tell a million strangers than the people i know and care about, but thats just the way it is. I just need people to tell me what they think is going on with me. cuz honestly i really just dont know. Im 14 turning 15 in a month and im having to do something i didn't expect to do until i was in my 20's. taking care of someone is harder than anyone could ever think. especially when that person is your own mother. just tell me what you have to say about this situation. be honest please. i think your opinions might help me. thanks.