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Mlr8286
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Ok i am new to this board and i need some help. I am a stay at home mother of 2. After each of them was born, for the 1st couple weeks, i would get really panicy (sp?). I didnt know what it was at the time. But i would just start to panic for no reason! especially when i was home alone with them! I would call my husband at work crying and begging him to come home! When he asked me what was wrong i didnt have an answer for him because i didnt know what was wrong! After a couple weeks it went away. But when i had my second it came back and went away after a couples weeks only to come back again a couple months later.
My youngest is almost 2 and i feel like i'm losing my mind! I dont deal with this every day but maybe everyother day.
I just get scared! I freak out!!! I hate being alone! it scares me and i dont know why! I dont feel like doing anything! I just sit around all day. I have no energy. I barely clean. only enough to get by. because of his i'm afaird of people coming over. I bring my kiRAB into my bedroom at night (my husband works night) and we watch tv in bed! I tell them it's a sluraber party and they like it but i feel awful! I bring them up there so that if people come over i can just say i didnt hear the door! It's crazy i know!
One day there was a knock at the door and i looked out he peep hole. 2 women in dress suites with a breifcase and a clipboard. I flipped out! I thought they were coming to take me kiRAB away! I was a hysterical all day! Crying and freaking out! Hyperventialting and shaking! I couldnt calm down! i fianlly told my husband why i was so upset and he laughed! They were jehovas (sp?) and i knew that! that always come around! i;ve seen them before! i dont know why i freaked out!
This isnt me! i dont like feeling this! i'm not a good wife or mother like this! I dont know what to do! I've thought about telling my doctor about it but i always talk myself out of it. One of the main reasons is because i'm erabarrased! my husband asnt even realized! usually when i go to the doctors i see the pa and i'm not really comfortable talking to her about it. When i call to make an appointment they always ask what the appointment is for and i dont want to tell them.
So i guess my point is, is this anxiety?
My youngest is almost 2 and i feel like i'm losing my mind! I dont deal with this every day but maybe everyother day.
I just get scared! I freak out!!! I hate being alone! it scares me and i dont know why! I dont feel like doing anything! I just sit around all day. I have no energy. I barely clean. only enough to get by. because of his i'm afaird of people coming over. I bring my kiRAB into my bedroom at night (my husband works night) and we watch tv in bed! I tell them it's a sluraber party and they like it but i feel awful! I bring them up there so that if people come over i can just say i didnt hear the door! It's crazy i know!
One day there was a knock at the door and i looked out he peep hole. 2 women in dress suites with a breifcase and a clipboard. I flipped out! I thought they were coming to take me kiRAB away! I was a hysterical all day! Crying and freaking out! Hyperventialting and shaking! I couldnt calm down! i fianlly told my husband why i was so upset and he laughed! They were jehovas (sp?) and i knew that! that always come around! i;ve seen them before! i dont know why i freaked out!
This isnt me! i dont like feeling this! i'm not a good wife or mother like this! I dont know what to do! I've thought about telling my doctor about it but i always talk myself out of it. One of the main reasons is because i'm erabarrased! my husband asnt even realized! usually when i go to the doctors i see the pa and i'm not really comfortable talking to her about it. When i call to make an appointment they always ask what the appointment is for and i dont want to tell them.
So i guess my point is, is this anxiety?