waft milky magic
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ive diggen myself in SUCH a hole, i feel so stupid...
basically im 16 and ive been in a relationship with my bf d'jarret whose 20 and in college (so hell have a good job) for around 3 year and we recently got engaged and plan to get married the summer before my senior year. <3
but about 5 months ago i told him i was pregnant because our relationship was on the rocks and i couldnt stand thinking of losing him. i became suicidal and cut myself almost every day and wrote a pretend suicide note to him but then i told him i was pregnant and we got engaged. i know i feel very stupid about all this but i was desperate.
anyway this was around 5 months ago, and im not pregnant. since then i've forced myself to gain more then 50 pounds to pretend im pregnant and i feel so miserable but he thinks im pregnant. sometimes i even have him feel on my stomach to feel the baby kicking. i told him i didnt think it was proper for him to be there in my appointments or see my ultrasound. but hes already told everyone in his family and his grandma bought him a 900 dollar baby bedroom thing.
how do i get myself out of this... i hate myself for it and i feel like such an idiot. should i run away? should i get lipesuction and then tell him i lost the baby?? please tell me what to do im desperate and i might take drstatec mesaures
basically im 16 and ive been in a relationship with my bf d'jarret whose 20 and in college (so hell have a good job) for around 3 year and we recently got engaged and plan to get married the summer before my senior year. <3
but about 5 months ago i told him i was pregnant because our relationship was on the rocks and i couldnt stand thinking of losing him. i became suicidal and cut myself almost every day and wrote a pretend suicide note to him but then i told him i was pregnant and we got engaged. i know i feel very stupid about all this but i was desperate.
anyway this was around 5 months ago, and im not pregnant. since then i've forced myself to gain more then 50 pounds to pretend im pregnant and i feel so miserable but he thinks im pregnant. sometimes i even have him feel on my stomach to feel the baby kicking. i told him i didnt think it was proper for him to be there in my appointments or see my ultrasound. but hes already told everyone in his family and his grandma bought him a 900 dollar baby bedroom thing.
how do i get myself out of this... i hate myself for it and i feel like such an idiot. should i run away? should i get lipesuction and then tell him i lost the baby?? please tell me what to do im desperate and i might take drstatec mesaures