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I will openly admit that I have trust issues, except I don't throw it around in everyday conversations... that's always the first step, right? My trust issues are a result of how multiple people have treated me in the past. Family members, close friends, boyfriends.. you name it, they've scarred me in some way.
The issues really started when I was around 13 and gradually became worse. I am now almost 23. I've shut out a large amount of family. I don't have friends anymore and I haven't dated since I was 16. At most, I have one person that I FULLY trust and sometimes that trust waivers.
When I do go out, I'll politely carry on small talk - but that's it. I don't form "bonds" with anyone. I expect any new people to treat me as others have. I know it's wrong, but I can't seem to change it.
I've tried talking to a therapist, but that was a waste of time. I couldn't bring myself to discuss anything personal with a complete stranger. Especially since she was writing the entire time. I honestly feel trapped by the invisible walls my issues have created and I believe my trust issues are what have given me anxiety problems.
I want to have friends, get married one day.. but right now, I don't see that happening.
What can I do?
The issues really started when I was around 13 and gradually became worse. I am now almost 23. I've shut out a large amount of family. I don't have friends anymore and I haven't dated since I was 16. At most, I have one person that I FULLY trust and sometimes that trust waivers.
When I do go out, I'll politely carry on small talk - but that's it. I don't form "bonds" with anyone. I expect any new people to treat me as others have. I know it's wrong, but I can't seem to change it.
I've tried talking to a therapist, but that was a waste of time. I couldn't bring myself to discuss anything personal with a complete stranger. Especially since she was writing the entire time. I honestly feel trapped by the invisible walls my issues have created and I believe my trust issues are what have given me anxiety problems.
I want to have friends, get married one day.. but right now, I don't see that happening.
What can I do?