my personal issues...taking over my life!

[iouaname]

I think that I am currently suffering from some sort of anxiety disorder...my mom has recommended I see someone, but I let time pass and now I'm about to leave for the summer so I won't be able to make that commitment.

I have always had some small anxiety problems, but lately it has gotten a whole lot worse and I can't be at peace with myself. There is always something make me terrified. It's mostly thoughts/scenarios controlling me, I don't have specific social phobias or anything. I just get so terrified about a countless nuraber of things and I feel OUT OF CONTROL.

Things that bother me to think about:

-Death/Dying, myself and loved ones
-My boyfriend talked to me one night calmly about death and I freaked out so much I started sobbing uncontrollably

-Being pregnant (this is a big one for me, because it would definitely ruin a lot of things if this happened)
-I can't even bring myself to take a pregnancy test at the moment, because I'm so scared of the possible outcome
-I don't even want to look up to see if my symptoms match

-Being alone
-I house-sit quite a bit, and being in houses alone terrify me so much I can't get to sleep and all I can usually think about is somebody breaking in or something else scary. I am familiar with the two houses I periodically stay at, and the neigrabroadorhooRAB are fine
-I also hate being alone in my own house when nobody is around...I hear noises and scare myself into staying up until the sun rises

-Aliens/The end of the world
-This one gets to me pretty bad. I've sobbed over this one too before, and get completely irrational about it. I am so scared of Aliens, that is my biggest phobia. I also get scared thinking about 2012 or meteors, and the world being over

These are just a few fears that bother me and make me feel like I am out of control. I know I need help for this, but I feel so abnormal and I know that I am really scaring my mom and my boyfriend. I just feel so alone and helpless.

I would really appreciate any thoughts, support, or advice.

 

[memawof3]

bless your heart!!!
well, it is a scary thing ill admit, but theres so much involved in it..
first, if you are pregnant, could be your harmons going haywire right now,dont know your age, but menopause doent help much with anxiety,
are you on any meRAB???
for anything, not just anxiety??
when was the last time you seen a doctor for a physical?
i do hopw you get to feeling better soon!
i to suffer anxiety,its no fun...
wish i could help more, but you might want to learn some deep breathing exersizes to help with them!!
bren

 

[gigi11]

I agree with the breathing exercises and there is so much information to help you - I ordered books on anxiety and breathing techniques from Dr. Weils - it really helps. You are not alone alot of people suffer from anxiety or panic - my fears my kiRAB will grow up and I will be left alone, another is I live in a boring home and everyone else is having fun. This could be generilized anxiety that your going through but this will all pass as time goes by just give it time. My worst times are in the morning and around 5:00 p.m everyday. Morning because I fear what the day will bring me and evening don't know why. I usually take a break from the tv because the news will make you depressed and get a good meditation cd to listen. You just need to calm the thoughts, take deep breaths and start to think positive. I know easier said than done but if you practice everyday, time will pass and you heal slowly.