my mother in law harrassed me mentally in all the possible ways she could. throughout...

[Paloma]

...my both pregnancies she? never helped but created every nuisance to make life hell for me and my kids. whenever i questioned her she hid behind i am a long suffering widow and patient woman and that i am a bad woman i am causing problem. i was beaten to pulp occasionally and her stance was because you talk in family and against me and my daughters (all of them married but they and our other relatives are extremely interfering in our life)its bound to happen to me that i was beaten like animals black and blue marks all over the body had to take painkillers to avoid pain and the most important i was so ashamed of it that i couldn't talk about it to anyone. because i had no option but to carry on this relationship. i shouldn't be in my husband 's life. i however took a long time to understand her and finally i took my revenge to the equal amount she caused trouble in my life and tried to destroy my household. if i objected silently or outside home nobody noticed in my family. i was told to leave home anytime i wanted. which i couldn't do i had no courage to face aftermath of leaving home and going to parents home. all the shame of a broken relationship was in bearable for them and me. my husband and in laws were afraid of only one thing if i tell anyone what they are doing to me. they wanted to keep up "image" of civilized people. its when i started screaming in agony, of suffering and still keeping mum and became abusive towards them they immediately took decision. she was sent back to our hometown. people are in inquisitive in our society about all those incidence they must have heard. i have no problems with my husband. so i don't want to tell anything about past to anyone but still the temptation to justify my shouting and abusive language to friends come in my mind. nobody asked anything to me. all this is so recent that i cannot discard it from my mind. i can't avoid people either because i want to socialize with my friends to forget about all that. if ever anyone hints to know about what happened then should i tell them truth which will definitely malign my husband or should i keep mum and say that that woman isn't me?