It began when I attempted a small "crime".. They said everything's fine, you guys can go. after 2 weeks i received a huge fine from civil demand. My mom started getting stressed and started to take out angers on me, not having the money. I told her i apologize and i already discussed this with physical discipline with my dad and adult sister. She ignored my words, and she said this, "I never wanted to show this in front of you."
I read more than 5 books about psychology and human minds, and this came right to me, "She's going to commit suicide"
She opened the kitchen drawer, got a 15cm knife, and aimed it on her stomach. I said alot of words in korean about apology, how i wont be able to fly as a bird without your help, etc.
She ignored my words. When i got closer, she stepped back and raised her arms to give force on the knife to stab her self. I was sure 90% she will do it. I dropped down. I begged her not to do it. I finally started to make a connection with her at age 13. I compared my friends who passed away 2 years ago from car accident and overdose on medication to her, saying, "i only met them for 2 months, but i met you my entire life... they received strong grief from me. What would i do if i lose someone x1000?"
She stopped, looked up for a second, then dropped the knife. I ran out. I ran out as fast as i can with bare feet. I ran to the local liquor store right in front of my house. They had a pocket knife. I took the knife, asked them, "Please, let me borrow this." I couldn't believe myself for saying that. I dropped to my knees, aimed the pocket knife on the back of my head, and said, "I have a reason." The clerk nearly cried, took away the knife from me, and said, "I've seen you ever since you were a small kid. You're almost 6 feet tall now. I can't see you getting killed."
I walked back home. My mom isnt here. Her car's missing. What happened? I don't know. I am sitting here on my keyboard typing. Am I worried? No. Seeing her almost dying, made me in a shock.
She just came back. What should I do? This is getting out of hand
I read more than 5 books about psychology and human minds, and this came right to me, "She's going to commit suicide"
She opened the kitchen drawer, got a 15cm knife, and aimed it on her stomach. I said alot of words in korean about apology, how i wont be able to fly as a bird without your help, etc.
She ignored my words. When i got closer, she stepped back and raised her arms to give force on the knife to stab her self. I was sure 90% she will do it. I dropped down. I begged her not to do it. I finally started to make a connection with her at age 13. I compared my friends who passed away 2 years ago from car accident and overdose on medication to her, saying, "i only met them for 2 months, but i met you my entire life... they received strong grief from me. What would i do if i lose someone x1000?"
She stopped, looked up for a second, then dropped the knife. I ran out. I ran out as fast as i can with bare feet. I ran to the local liquor store right in front of my house. They had a pocket knife. I took the knife, asked them, "Please, let me borrow this." I couldn't believe myself for saying that. I dropped to my knees, aimed the pocket knife on the back of my head, and said, "I have a reason." The clerk nearly cried, took away the knife from me, and said, "I've seen you ever since you were a small kid. You're almost 6 feet tall now. I can't see you getting killed."
I walked back home. My mom isnt here. Her car's missing. What happened? I don't know. I am sitting here on my keyboard typing. Am I worried? No. Seeing her almost dying, made me in a shock.
She just came back. What should I do? This is getting out of hand