My lifes a freaking joke!!! Should i cut the string that holds my pathethic life

[dang, i hate high school]

together? Frist of all, I'm deaf...I los tmy hearing due to an accident during sophomore year. Or that I was losing it from birth but noone caught it. Either way, my life has been fked up. I can hear due to the use of technology, which is good in a way and bad in another since trying to cover it with my hair is exhausting by itself. I can hear but lately i feel i am just hearing gibberish (not all just like some) and this really depresses me because I'm kept out of my frends conversations, that is if I have any...i mean people talk to me but sometimes I don't hear..its complicated I dont expect anyone to understand. Sometimes I just get really mad at why this happened to me and noone else. People do so much bad stuff out there, even in my school and not a lot of bad stuff happens to them (I dont mean offense agaisnt other deaf people). I am just sick of tired of this bs in my life...idk what I should do, I try to keep moving, I get decent grades (5 Aps and only 2 Bs so far). I really want to be a doctor and help other people out that have this problem, by helping out I mean find a cure. But idk anymore considering my life is getting really hard...I hate high school so much, lol.

 

[QTbrainiac]

Maybe you should discuss this with your folks? You could possible find a new school or even just an afterschool group which deals with deaf teenagers and there you wont be left out, you will be the majority!
Dont 'cut the string' as corny as this sounds, things WILL get better. I hated high school too, but I have been finished for three years now and have some of the most wonderful friends, If I had of ended my life in high school i would never have had any of the opportunities that came to me after woulds such as College, jobs and lovers. Stay strong and maybe seek professional therapy.
Goodluck with your journey.