Antony Faver
New member
As my rubbish life drags on the only thing I look forward to in a day is my knife. I am 16 and often people say I'm an idiot and I have know idea what depression is or how to handle it, I do know what it is I suffered from it for 10 years and I still am. When I was 10 my gran died and I never really bothered about it, but I started smoking a few weeks after. Through 3 years of smoking I ended up getting involved with drugs I started out light but as my life progressed I began to become a heavier drug abuser mainly a short while after my dad died of cancer and I thought whats the point anymore, my Dad never smoked a day in his life nor take drugs, he had a beer a day not enough to damage his liver but yet he still developed cancer and it was then I realized there is no justice in the world and that good people die first. After years of girlfriends and all of them broke up with me I realised I am the problem in life it is all me so I took up cutting to turn my emotional pain into physical to let it all out, I have tried suicide but failed several times and have talked to so many people about it but they never understand. So I turn to the public to basically choose my fate live or die I don't care.