My intelligence, life family and others?

This is more of a help and life question in life than anything. I come from a very intelligent family, my 3 siblings are 12 years older than me while I am 19. Each one of them has a Phd, masters and countless awards and nominations when they were my age. When I was young, they were the breadwinners of the house, providing for my school, making me food, working 3 jobs (very true) and managing to put themselves through the most difficult part of their lives and go to school at the same time. They are amazingly gifted and we share in my opinion the closest family bond of any family I know, and Im not simply saying this out of nothing.
Now I am a nursing student in my first year. When I was in high school I always had high marks and had many friends and very sociable. However, my grade 11 year I fell apart for some reason, I was barley passing and didn't have time to change a thing, making me nearly fail grade 11 and therefor suffer in my grade 12 year badly. My family loves me to death, they know I`m smart, funny, handsome and want more than anything to see me succeed, they always pushed me ti exceed and be better than I am and above any conventional standards, but its not like they were suffocating me, not even, they always took me out and showed me so much love because they when they were my age they only had themselves to rely on. So all they want is me to be happy and know i can do it. So when they saw me fail like that, they were devastated. Ever since then, even as much as they love me, I don`t believe they regard my intelligence as highly, so Ive slowly felt distanced in our relationship in that single way. Even though we do everything together, I want to prove I am smart again, I believe my own reasonings for going into nursings was because i wanted them to see that again, and I want to go on and be a doctor afterwards actually.
I read many books, 2 a week just to try and reprove to them how smart I really am, but its as if its not there
What do people do to make themselves smarter in the eyes of family and others without reading everything in life? I just want them to see again how smart I am. I really am smart though so how do I prove that?
Im not meaning this to sound rude or anything remotely of the sort, people know I'm smart and i know it too, yet I have many friends who are smarter than myself and many who aren't but thats not what im asking if you properly read what it is I asked.
 
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