My first time was bleeding and crazy painful, I cried and asked the guy to stop but he ignored, instead he fucked me harder. My second time was two weeks after that, again, painful but this time I bleed like crazy. In fact this time, I was tied and blindfolded. Three months after that, I done it again and again 6 months after. The third and fourth time, it was normal one, but i try to enjoy it, but i cant, its freaking pain. All these four times I did it, it was really, really painful. I think I am now phobic to do sex, because its crazy painful.Just two days ago, I slept with my girlfriend, and I enjoyed it very much. She even make me squirt, for the first time in my life. it was really good! OMG, I don't wanna except that I'm a lesbian, maybe if I can have a no pain sex with man, I wont turn into lesbian. I need help! what should I do, I'm from malaysia, in my country it is very forbidden to be lesbian.