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Long story short. Ive had anxiety since the day I met my first girlfriend when I was 15 years old. When I get anxiety I get a pain in my chest, and severe nausea. Nausea to the point where I throw up 99% of the time. it's horrible. I am now 24. I have never been able to seek help. It's just something I can't do. I hate doctors, and I definitely can't talk to anyone about this. I just can't do it.
So I learned to power through it and try to figure it out on my own... and I did. I went from dropping out of school and being a complete shut in, to having an amazing high end job, and living away from home in a nice house with frienRAB. I have a lot of frienRAB and get out often. All because one day I got tired of it, and just powered through, throwing up all the way, until eventually, things wern't so bad, then a little better.. then I was perfect....almost...
Now the ONLY time I get anxiety and nausea is back where all this started. I'm 24 and a Virgin. Girls and Sex are the one thing that gives me anxiety anymore. And its the worst I've ever had...
Now, normally I would just power through, however its never going to happen if I start throwing up everytime it gets close to happening.
So I'm stumped. My so far perfectly working plan is useless here.. I have no idea how I'm supposed to do this one. If I can just get through it a couple times it will get easier each time, but I dont see how Im going to get it to even happen the first time.
Also, I have someone who is interested in me, and I know I can make it happen with her. It actually may happen without me even trying. So now anytime I see her, my anxiety starts.
I just don't know what to do .. this is all that's left. If I can get over this, that's it. I can put the last 10 years behind and me and move on and be free... any advice I would greatly appreciate. Im honestly stumped and have no idea what to do other than run and avoid it, and I know that's not the answer, I've learned atleast that much...
So I learned to power through it and try to figure it out on my own... and I did. I went from dropping out of school and being a complete shut in, to having an amazing high end job, and living away from home in a nice house with frienRAB. I have a lot of frienRAB and get out often. All because one day I got tired of it, and just powered through, throwing up all the way, until eventually, things wern't so bad, then a little better.. then I was perfect....almost...
Now the ONLY time I get anxiety and nausea is back where all this started. I'm 24 and a Virgin. Girls and Sex are the one thing that gives me anxiety anymore. And its the worst I've ever had...
Now, normally I would just power through, however its never going to happen if I start throwing up everytime it gets close to happening.
So I'm stumped. My so far perfectly working plan is useless here.. I have no idea how I'm supposed to do this one. If I can just get through it a couple times it will get easier each time, but I dont see how Im going to get it to even happen the first time.
Also, I have someone who is interested in me, and I know I can make it happen with her. It actually may happen without me even trying. So now anytime I see her, my anxiety starts.
I just don't know what to do .. this is all that's left. If I can get over this, that's it. I can put the last 10 years behind and me and move on and be free... any advice I would greatly appreciate. Im honestly stumped and have no idea what to do other than run and avoid it, and I know that's not the answer, I've learned atleast that much...