said????????????????????????????????? i'm 16. i do rowing if it matters. i have a bunch of confidence issues and my coach even told me i need more confidence.
i have a main coach (guy) and an assistant coach (girl). i joined the team late so i have been in the bottom boat (worst girls). but i was one of the top girls last year. the past few days i was doing really well on all of the workouts and i was pushing myself so hard. the main coach kept cheering me on. but yesterday at practice i thought i was doing really well and i was trying rowing really hard. but i had a bad day and wasn't really focused. and a lot of time she tells me to make changes to my technique and i don' do it. so the assistant coach was watching me yesterday with my coach from last year. i was really good technically last year so the old coach may have said something about that. but i was doing really badly and both of my coaches were talking about me i'm pretty sure.
but basically the assistant coach went up to me after practice and i was like "are you trying?" like she thought i wasn't trying. and i guess that's good because that means she think i'm capable of more right? because sometimes people look really stupid and row badly but they are really trying. maybe my old coach told her that i'm usually technically good (she always complimented me last year on my technique so i know). but the assistant basically told me i was doing really badly and slowing down the boat.
the worst part about it was that she took video of just me when i was rowing and probably was going to show it to the main coach, who thought i was doing well and saw me trying really hard the previous days. it's just really embarrassing. and i'd rather look like i'm not trying and doing badly, instead of looking like i'm trying really hard but just doing badly.
but this morning at practice both of the coaches were watching me and complimented me in the very beginning. then at the end of practice it went to sh*t and they were both yelling at me. and when they talked to us after practice, they talked to the whole group about the technical thing that i was doing wrong. they didn't say that i was doing it, but they were describing exactly what i was doing.
idk and i just hate how all my coaches are talking about me. i'm a SUPER self conscious person so it's basically all i've been thinking about, how my coach said i was slowing the boat down and thought i wasn't trying. i'm hoping it's because they see potential in me and that's why they're focusing so much on me. or they might just think i'm not trying because when i did try, i still continued to be in the bottom boat. they might think i'm giving up.
see, i'm just over analyzing! i need advice on how to think of this positively and continue to have confidence at practice. because right now i'm just freaking out and i feel really embarrassed..like i don't even want to face my coaches.
i have a main coach (guy) and an assistant coach (girl). i joined the team late so i have been in the bottom boat (worst girls). but i was one of the top girls last year. the past few days i was doing really well on all of the workouts and i was pushing myself so hard. the main coach kept cheering me on. but yesterday at practice i thought i was doing really well and i was trying rowing really hard. but i had a bad day and wasn't really focused. and a lot of time she tells me to make changes to my technique and i don' do it. so the assistant coach was watching me yesterday with my coach from last year. i was really good technically last year so the old coach may have said something about that. but i was doing really badly and both of my coaches were talking about me i'm pretty sure.
but basically the assistant coach went up to me after practice and i was like "are you trying?" like she thought i wasn't trying. and i guess that's good because that means she think i'm capable of more right? because sometimes people look really stupid and row badly but they are really trying. maybe my old coach told her that i'm usually technically good (she always complimented me last year on my technique so i know). but the assistant basically told me i was doing really badly and slowing down the boat.
the worst part about it was that she took video of just me when i was rowing and probably was going to show it to the main coach, who thought i was doing well and saw me trying really hard the previous days. it's just really embarrassing. and i'd rather look like i'm not trying and doing badly, instead of looking like i'm trying really hard but just doing badly.
but this morning at practice both of the coaches were watching me and complimented me in the very beginning. then at the end of practice it went to sh*t and they were both yelling at me. and when they talked to us after practice, they talked to the whole group about the technical thing that i was doing wrong. they didn't say that i was doing it, but they were describing exactly what i was doing.
idk and i just hate how all my coaches are talking about me. i'm a SUPER self conscious person so it's basically all i've been thinking about, how my coach said i was slowing the boat down and thought i wasn't trying. i'm hoping it's because they see potential in me and that's why they're focusing so much on me. or they might just think i'm not trying because when i did try, i still continued to be in the bottom boat. they might think i'm giving up.
see, i'm just over analyzing! i need advice on how to think of this positively and continue to have confidence at practice. because right now i'm just freaking out and i feel really embarrassed..like i don't even want to face my coaches.