We have been together for almost two years now and I love him very much. We have been through a lot (so much that has brought us closer) and dealt with long distance quite a bit and now we are about two hours away from each other- which isn't too bad but it is hard both of us being so busy and not seeing him every day. Two hours definitely beats the 20 we had to deal with before!
We are sophomores in college and he plans to join after we graduate which means I have about two years left with him before he would have to leave. But it's not only the military- after that he plans to be busy with law school. We are twenty years old and I feel like we won't really be able to just be together until after I'm thirty! This would be much easier if I just liked him and it wasn't very serious but we are very serious about each other and I don't want to imagine my life without him.
Sometimes I think that if he was truly in love with me he wouldn't even consider being away from me and putting us through that. He is very ambitious and I am too but sometimes I feel like it is his life and I'm just along for the ride. He always assures me that his own plans have nothing to do with his feelings towards me and that it will be worth it in the end when we can actually be together. I love the fact that he is thinking that far ahead but at the same time this is MY LIFE. This could be weeks or months or years going by missing him and worrying and never knowing how things will be during and after the military. I only have one life and do I want to risk being miserable during my twenties when that's the best time to enjoy it?
I like to think if I love him that I will stick through it, but it is much more complex than that. He said that if I told him now I couldn't handle it he would understand but he will be beyond upset with me and not give us a chance again if I decided right before he left that I couldn't- he would have wasted years thinking that we were going somewhere. I'd like to easily say "Yes, I'm in this all the way with you. I love you." but who knows how I will feel when it gets closer to that time when he has to leave.
We are sophomores in college and he plans to join after we graduate which means I have about two years left with him before he would have to leave. But it's not only the military- after that he plans to be busy with law school. We are twenty years old and I feel like we won't really be able to just be together until after I'm thirty! This would be much easier if I just liked him and it wasn't very serious but we are very serious about each other and I don't want to imagine my life without him.
Sometimes I think that if he was truly in love with me he wouldn't even consider being away from me and putting us through that. He is very ambitious and I am too but sometimes I feel like it is his life and I'm just along for the ride. He always assures me that his own plans have nothing to do with his feelings towards me and that it will be worth it in the end when we can actually be together. I love the fact that he is thinking that far ahead but at the same time this is MY LIFE. This could be weeks or months or years going by missing him and worrying and never knowing how things will be during and after the military. I only have one life and do I want to risk being miserable during my twenties when that's the best time to enjoy it?
I like to think if I love him that I will stick through it, but it is much more complex than that. He said that if I told him now I couldn't handle it he would understand but he will be beyond upset with me and not give us a chance again if I decided right before he left that I couldn't- he would have wasted years thinking that we were going somewhere. I'd like to easily say "Yes, I'm in this all the way with you. I love you." but who knows how I will feel when it gets closer to that time when he has to leave.