together, I frgave him...? well ,my boyfriend was caught lying to be, saying he wouldn't look at girls on webcam he met online, and I always checked his comp and found out he did...
well, we had a huge fight, took a break from each other, I dated a guy and did some things I'm not proud of, he kept calling me,crying, and I knew I still loved him, and at that time I always thought it could have always been worse...
But now, we made a pact: I wouldn't look at his comp and he wouldn't look at mine.
He changed his email aswell, deleting the other email too etc...
He does spend a lot of time with me, he always invites me to go out with his friends etc... and we talk everyday on the phone, online, or he comes over after tafe.
He admits he does watch porn now, but I said that's ok as long as it doesn't interfere with our sex life.
He has proven himself he really wants to be with me, but still, I really can't fight the urge to check his computer! I know it's wrong to check , and it would be too controlling if I did. I have a mean jealous streak now...
The problem is, I'm so paranoid now, I need something to help me sleep because I'm so scared..( I know I would still check the next guy's stuff, so it wouldn't really be any better if I moved on)... I do trust him, in the sense I looked on the internet and found nothing of that sort of thing...
I feel scared, so cheap if he is doing it behind my back and I'm letting it be done to me. I hate men overall, thinking they are all the same, why do they have the right to watch another girl strip (porn), and us girls have to suffer like this?
I am so scared... I hate men so much now (you probably think I'm a lesbian now lol, but really, I'd hate that way much more
)...
I'm sooo paranoid! He never lets me near his computer if he isn't around! I don't know if he's scared that I get angry about something else (because after that incident, I even got angry because he googled for the name of some girl who added him on msn)...
Am I overreacting? He is being sooo private with his computer, I'm really really scared!
I don't care if he watches porn! But webcam sex is still sex! Especially if it's watchign real live people!
well, we had a huge fight, took a break from each other, I dated a guy and did some things I'm not proud of, he kept calling me,crying, and I knew I still loved him, and at that time I always thought it could have always been worse...
But now, we made a pact: I wouldn't look at his comp and he wouldn't look at mine.
He changed his email aswell, deleting the other email too etc...
He does spend a lot of time with me, he always invites me to go out with his friends etc... and we talk everyday on the phone, online, or he comes over after tafe.
He admits he does watch porn now, but I said that's ok as long as it doesn't interfere with our sex life.
He has proven himself he really wants to be with me, but still, I really can't fight the urge to check his computer! I know it's wrong to check , and it would be too controlling if I did. I have a mean jealous streak now...
The problem is, I'm so paranoid now, I need something to help me sleep because I'm so scared..( I know I would still check the next guy's stuff, so it wouldn't really be any better if I moved on)... I do trust him, in the sense I looked on the internet and found nothing of that sort of thing...
I feel scared, so cheap if he is doing it behind my back and I'm letting it be done to me. I hate men overall, thinking they are all the same, why do they have the right to watch another girl strip (porn), and us girls have to suffer like this?
I am so scared... I hate men so much now (you probably think I'm a lesbian now lol, but really, I'd hate that way much more
)...I'm sooo paranoid! He never lets me near his computer if he isn't around! I don't know if he's scared that I get angry about something else (because after that incident, I even got angry because he googled for the name of some girl who added him on msn)...
Am I overreacting? He is being sooo private with his computer, I'm really really scared!
I don't care if he watches porn! But webcam sex is still sex! Especially if it's watchign real live people!