I feel guilty. He has had a rough couple of years. In and out of the hospital from 2007-2008, became addicted to drugs, fell into the wrong crowd. He was two months sober when he died. He was finally getting his life in order. A few days before his death we sat down and talked about how he had a job interview and was planning on going back to school, how he was going to get an apartment and finally "grow up". The thought of him never getting to grow up and living life is eating me alive. I wish i'd have taken the time to really get to know him. I feel awful because I always told my dad he would end up dead if he didn't get his act together. The tragic thing is he was finally on track, and he swerves off the road into a tree, killing him instantly and sending his girlfriend of 4 years in the ICU. I see him everywhere. I want this to go away, it's all over the news, the papers, and on the news website. My entire town knows it's happened, and I feel like living here will never be the same. Someone sent me a message saying "I seen you're brother in a body bag on the news last night." I am numb, completely disconnected from everything, everyone. I am 17, and it's just me and my dad now. I always complained about how loud my brother and his friends were and now I crave the noise. It is quiet and lonely. What I'm asking is how to cope with this? It's all happened so fast I just don't know what to do, what to think, who to talk to. I can't talk without bursting into tears. Someone please assure me things will get better....
Sorry this is so long.
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Sorry this is so long.
Fishing for compliments? - How so?