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Martha
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...YOUR TROUBLES.? im only 15, still a kid...
this past year has been the hardest of my life:
my mum who i loved so much became sort-of mentally ill, she hit me and my sister the whole time and was a nightmare to be around. she emotionally blackmailed us the whole time and being at home soon became more like hell.
so, my parents got divorced and i live with my dad now. i havent seen or spoken to my mum for 10 months now.
I want a mum so badly, just not my mum...
also, im not close to my dad. when i was a young child my mum 'brain-washed' me against him, and i find him...almost repulsive now. and it hurts so much and i feel so horrible sayign that.
my dad has tried so hard to get us money (with the economical crisis its been hugely difficult), and he is doing his best.
My sister, who i was so close to, got rejected from Cambridge University and has been depressed for about a month now. shes really 'empty' and im scared shes considered suicide, coz she told me that she didnt care about anyone else right now (which hurt me a lot).
my life, in a year went from being a happy teenager with plenty of friends at boarding school, living in a nice big country house with a fairly happy family (well, we werent happy, my mum was always physco, but atleast things were better than now),
to where i am now; living in a small flat in london squished up with my stressed semi-alcoholic dad and depressed sister, with no money. my self-confident has plummeted and iv lost over 3/4s of my friends.
im not looking for sympathy coz whats the point right? im sure theres loads of poeple worse off than me.
in fact it would be comforting if other people would reply and rant on about their troubles!
Im just trying to stay positive and not resulve to alcohol, drugs or self harm (even though iv tried all those things, but decided to stop because i have an axtremely addictive nature and didnt want to risk it, although i am already a smoker).
tell me your problems! xxx
email me if you want someone to be miserable with!
this past year has been the hardest of my life:
my mum who i loved so much became sort-of mentally ill, she hit me and my sister the whole time and was a nightmare to be around. she emotionally blackmailed us the whole time and being at home soon became more like hell.
so, my parents got divorced and i live with my dad now. i havent seen or spoken to my mum for 10 months now.
I want a mum so badly, just not my mum...
also, im not close to my dad. when i was a young child my mum 'brain-washed' me against him, and i find him...almost repulsive now. and it hurts so much and i feel so horrible sayign that.
my dad has tried so hard to get us money (with the economical crisis its been hugely difficult), and he is doing his best.
My sister, who i was so close to, got rejected from Cambridge University and has been depressed for about a month now. shes really 'empty' and im scared shes considered suicide, coz she told me that she didnt care about anyone else right now (which hurt me a lot).
my life, in a year went from being a happy teenager with plenty of friends at boarding school, living in a nice big country house with a fairly happy family (well, we werent happy, my mum was always physco, but atleast things were better than now),
to where i am now; living in a small flat in london squished up with my stressed semi-alcoholic dad and depressed sister, with no money. my self-confident has plummeted and iv lost over 3/4s of my friends.
im not looking for sympathy coz whats the point right? im sure theres loads of poeple worse off than me.
in fact it would be comforting if other people would reply and rant on about their troubles!
Im just trying to stay positive and not resulve to alcohol, drugs or self harm (even though iv tried all those things, but decided to stop because i have an axtremely addictive nature and didnt want to risk it, although i am already a smoker).
tell me your problems! xxx
email me if you want someone to be miserable with!