Mouthwash

[thedeazy]

ok, this really sucks, but i've advanced to drinking mouthwash on a regular basis. I quit drinking after my dui back in Noveraber of 08. Now, nearly 6 months later, I thought that by swallowing mouthwash (after learning that it contains up to 26.9% alcohol or something) will somehow not qualify for "falling off the wagon" since i haven't actually taken a "real" drink of anything since my day of arrest. I'm shamefully hiding the whole thing (who wouldn't... no human is supposed to DRINK mouthwash) but those close to me are catching on, seeing as i'm showing signs of intoxication... slurred speech, red eyes, rosy cheeks... etc. I've began lying to cover up my secret, but for some sick reason, my mind is telling me that i still am not actually drinking anything socially considered an alcoholic beverage. Its to the point where i visit the local CVS or drug store a few times a week. I know that I cant keep this up, but i dont want to give my secret away either. I'm worried about the negative side effects of drinking mouthwash... horrible smelling pee, bad diahreah, kidney stones, or worse??? I dont really know what the side effects really could add up to, and maybe if i knew for sure, i'd quit. But for now, its no worse than a really cheap alcohol. My girlfriend has already confronted me about drinking the house-stash of mouthwash because it was rapidly disappearing but i lied and said she was crazy. I feel like i'd almost be better off drinking REAL alcohol that humans are ment to consume that hiding this nasty habit. anyone have any comments on this?? and by the way........ I dont want to hear any answers concerning going to AA or yadda yadda. To be honest, I really dont feel like it, and i've sat through enough meetings to know that I'm not ready to sit through any more. They just arent sinking in... i need something else.... I dont know what i really want. I guess just some feedback. someone to talk to, because right now, this is just my secret, and anyone else who happens to read this post.

 

[ozzybug]

Hey there, and welcome to the boarRAB Deazy-

I want to be blunt with you here- what your are doing is highly dangerous to your health. You see, mouthwash contains flouride and flouride is toxic. It is not meant to be ingested like you are doing. I personally knew someone who died from drinking mouthwash. He was only 42 years old.

First, I applaud the courage you have in even admitting you have a problem, that is a HUGE step to take, and yes it takes courage to do so. You have taken a step in the right direction.

Now, the hard work begins and you have to find a way to draw from the strength you used back in 2008 when you stopped drinking. You did it once, and you can do it again.

Find that strength and determination and it will be worth the effort. You are worth the effort!!

Best wishes in your journey.

 

[mindy1974]

hi buddy! glad you being honest about your thinking and your drinking, and yes no dought you are drinking alcohol everyday and mouth was will kill just as fast as a beer, well actually faster. when they found my landlorRAB wife dead they did a autopsy. her internal organs shut down from the poisons in the mouthwash she was drinking daily.
there allot more free suport out there then yu think. you dont have to do this alone. keep us updated.
best of luck staying sober today!