Im at 22 about to be 23 in a few months, I have two kids and Ive had depression sense my first child. I slowly went through a lot of emotions and never got meds, I ignored it for awhile until I felt like i was OKAY. Back in 09 my father in-law passed, (very sad) I thought bout him just about every day and still do. Then I had my second child, and my dog died a few months ago and I guess that triggered something because I cant sleep at night (even with sleep aids) I go trough phases where I dont feel like moving and then there is the phases where i cant get enough to do. The worst part is when I do try to sleep my head races the thoughts of I'm breathing then one day I wont, we dont exist and we do and then we dont again. I know it sounds crazy, I tried to go to my mental health place a couple of weeks ago but they want me to come back in October (that's when Ill have insurance) I forgot the main part every night I have dreams crazy ones, some times sad or some one i care about getting hurt...I hate these feeling, Does any one know what I should do while Im wait for October?