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LindseyxLovesxyahh

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im a bit under the weather today

i woke up to being locked in my own bedroom. for some reason the door knob decided to break and i had to kick the door out in order to get it to work. i am now missing a bedroom door

ill add that to the list of shit ill never be able to fix because im a fucking loser

feeling bad for myself? yeah just a tad

i get a call at 8:15 in the morning. its my mom from florida. they came and reposessed my car last night. the car that i paid over $7000 on. the car that i worked so hard to keep for so many years. the car that i use to put before rent. rent which is now 6 days overdue.

its better this way right? i mean i have bills to pay. i have 1100.00 rent, car insurance totaling around 350.00 a month (for two cars - one given to me by my b/f), utilities totaling about 150.00, gas is up to 3.00 and costing me about 300.00 a month, food costing god knows how much each month. maybe if i eliminate eating ill save some money. im so smart.

my b/f got laid off a week or two ago. i cant even afford toilet paper this week.

i feel like driving my very ugly, very used car off a bridge.
im really upset and i dont know how to snap out of it. now i have to sit at work and put a smile on my face even though im crying and pretend like nothing is wrong.

to top everything off i cant sleep. not sure why but i wake up 3981902381 times a night and it really sucks.

i should just become a cocaine addict then i would at least have a reason for never having any money.

its like.. when it rains it pours.
not sure why i feel like announcing all this to a message board. maybe because i have nobody else to talk to anymore. i dont think mike understands when i try to talk to him. he just tells me im unhappy with him. i dont know how to express to him that its not him its life in general. maybe i need medication. some xanex sounds good right about now.

i kind of just walked out of the house after i heard the news my car was repo'd. i bet mike is wondering what happened to me. i cried to myself for a while then left. i dont want to go home today. everything comes into focus when im home. i start to fight with my b/f. he tells me im unhappy and its him. he just doesnt listen.

ive been giving him the cold shoulder lately. he asked to have sex this morning before all of this happened and i told him no. i dont know why im giving him the cold shoulder. maybe because i really think he doesnt understand me. who could undertstand me? im a basket case.

i hate the government. im thinking i should write to them just to yell at them. they are all a bunch of assholes!

well this is the end of my rant/complaining/depression whatever you want to call it. here it is brion "I'm a cutter, I'm going to suicide... blah blah blah..." happy?
 
holy shit,
that sounds like something out of grouphug.
maybe you should talk to a professional about that;
sounds like you have a ton of issue that are going to
keep building up until you pop.
 
I've had some pretty shitty days too. Doesn't seem to take too long for things to flip and your on top of the world again.

Chin up.

None of this \/

:sword:
 
Aww Icka.

You'll feel better soon. You may feel stuck at home, but if you work overtime, you'll fight with your boyfriend less (since you're home less), you'll make more money to pay for your stuff, and you'll sleep better since you're more tired.

I hope everything looks up!
 
Your just in a rough patch in your life. We all get them, life has to get shitty befor it can get better. I myself just got through a really bad time. Keep your chin up, and if your bf doesn't like you anymore cause you put on a few pounds, dump him.
 
No, I'm not happy. Whereas, the stories I find amusing have little to no point, and are oftentimes made by people who simply cannot and will not realize that life outside of High School, is much more serious, with more dire consequences than Little Billy MacPherson in geometry being unwilling to look at you; Your story is actually about something that is real. Which is why I hope for a quick and sudden resolution to your problems. I also wish you strength, and passion to persevere. So go out there and kick some ass.:thumbsup:
 
Sucks for your situation.


However, why did you buy the expensive car if you cannot afford it?


Did something happen with YOUR job?


Shouldn't you get rid of the boyfriend if you're living together and he isn't paying his share?
 
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