Okay now this one is complicated...i could probably fill up a book with details for you guys, but I'm going to try to keep it in the 4.9 thousand word mark or so lol. Well here is the story, I've been playing this game since i was 12, its an online MMORPG and when i was 14 i met this girl. This girl isn't like any girl I've met....she is kind,caring,pretty, everything. At first we just talked, once we got to know each other i asked her to marry me on the game and she accepted. From there it all started....we got closer and closer and we both developed feelings for each other, so fast forward about 6 or so months of talking.
From that we come to the present day and I've learned a lot about her. 1. She is from japan and currently lives in Guam 2. she is INNOCENT....like...really..you guys have no idea (i will explain more later) 3. she is really a girl and really 16 lol, this is for all you people warning of internet pedophiles...I have talked to her on the phone, seen her on web cam, seen pictures, etc etc. As for explaining the innocent part well...she is 16 and doesn't even know about sex (hard to believe i know) but somehow her parents have managed to brush it off and tell her its only for married people and babies r born from a man and woman. (she is rather sheltered....).
The third paragraph brings us even deeper into this long story lol, so if you need to take a break come back =p. Any who not only that but my mom doesn't know about her AND my mom does NOT approve of interracial couples (fine for other people...she holds no prejudice, just not for her son) needless to say i do NOT agree but no matter what i say she just doesn't get my side. (Her parents know nothing of me either and she isn't allowed to have a boyfriend).
Going back to the innocent part...well (i will give some back story on our uh.."Sex life" if you can even call it that then tell one of the problems) Well as innocent as she is she has never really felt horny or anything. Until not long ago, when we were talking about when we met what we would do, i said the first thing i would do is hug her and kiss her over and over. Well somehow it triggered something i guess and she started telling me that something was wrong, she felt hot, and uhm (got nervous i had to pry the info out of her...cuz i was worried she was sick) she eventually told me she felt "tingly" when i asked where ofc she said down there and it was wet etc etc. So i tried explaining this to her.
Eventually we got into the concept of sex, she got curious and eventually it was explained to her with ..a little difficulty, but it got done. (Back story done, here is one of the problems) Recently she felt that way again but this time wanted to feel something...she wanted to know how to touch herself, i explained it to her and she told me what she wanted me to do to her and alot of other things (too much for this question, but u get the idea) but the problem is i liked it...and i feel guilty, i wouldn't feel this way with any other girl but i mean, she is innocent, i feel like i took advantage of her.
Lastly in this super long book-of-a-question, she has a serious illness that i dont feel like explaining but i still love this girl, she is all i can think about sometimes. Not only in a sexual way but in every way.I just want to be there with her, i just want to have her by my side. I cant explain it... some of you may say that this isn't love yada yada ya but love isn't age related...it can happen at any age and it just happens to be happening at 15 in this case and 16 in hers (i know she feels the same way about me...she has said it many times and in many ways) so i suppose the questions boil down to...(along with the problems in the passage) Am i stupid to love this girl? Im in America and she is in Guam...i know the chances are slim but it can be done...not to mention am i a bad person? i mean i really feel like i took advantage what do i do? please help...she is beginning to be the only thing to occupy my mind...and idk how much longer i can take it with these lingering things in my mind. (Please read it all before answering...and give a GOOD answer...not this short little sentence or something, i realize few of you will really take the time or anything but....at very least typing it got some of this out of my system...like an outlet)
As for going to guam i have collage plans already set and im going to go into a study abroad program. either to japan (her parents will send here there for family visits and what not) or to guam
From that we come to the present day and I've learned a lot about her. 1. She is from japan and currently lives in Guam 2. she is INNOCENT....like...really..you guys have no idea (i will explain more later) 3. she is really a girl and really 16 lol, this is for all you people warning of internet pedophiles...I have talked to her on the phone, seen her on web cam, seen pictures, etc etc. As for explaining the innocent part well...she is 16 and doesn't even know about sex (hard to believe i know) but somehow her parents have managed to brush it off and tell her its only for married people and babies r born from a man and woman. (she is rather sheltered....).
The third paragraph brings us even deeper into this long story lol, so if you need to take a break come back =p. Any who not only that but my mom doesn't know about her AND my mom does NOT approve of interracial couples (fine for other people...she holds no prejudice, just not for her son) needless to say i do NOT agree but no matter what i say she just doesn't get my side. (Her parents know nothing of me either and she isn't allowed to have a boyfriend).
Going back to the innocent part...well (i will give some back story on our uh.."Sex life" if you can even call it that then tell one of the problems) Well as innocent as she is she has never really felt horny or anything. Until not long ago, when we were talking about when we met what we would do, i said the first thing i would do is hug her and kiss her over and over. Well somehow it triggered something i guess and she started telling me that something was wrong, she felt hot, and uhm (got nervous i had to pry the info out of her...cuz i was worried she was sick) she eventually told me she felt "tingly" when i asked where ofc she said down there and it was wet etc etc. So i tried explaining this to her.
Eventually we got into the concept of sex, she got curious and eventually it was explained to her with ..a little difficulty, but it got done. (Back story done, here is one of the problems) Recently she felt that way again but this time wanted to feel something...she wanted to know how to touch herself, i explained it to her and she told me what she wanted me to do to her and alot of other things (too much for this question, but u get the idea) but the problem is i liked it...and i feel guilty, i wouldn't feel this way with any other girl but i mean, she is innocent, i feel like i took advantage of her.
Lastly in this super long book-of-a-question, she has a serious illness that i dont feel like explaining but i still love this girl, she is all i can think about sometimes. Not only in a sexual way but in every way.I just want to be there with her, i just want to have her by my side. I cant explain it... some of you may say that this isn't love yada yada ya but love isn't age related...it can happen at any age and it just happens to be happening at 15 in this case and 16 in hers (i know she feels the same way about me...she has said it many times and in many ways) so i suppose the questions boil down to...(along with the problems in the passage) Am i stupid to love this girl? Im in America and she is in Guam...i know the chances are slim but it can be done...not to mention am i a bad person? i mean i really feel like i took advantage what do i do? please help...she is beginning to be the only thing to occupy my mind...and idk how much longer i can take it with these lingering things in my mind. (Please read it all before answering...and give a GOOD answer...not this short little sentence or something, i realize few of you will really take the time or anything but....at very least typing it got some of this out of my system...like an outlet)
As for going to guam i have collage plans already set and im going to go into a study abroad program. either to japan (her parents will send here there for family visits and what not) or to guam