Looking for a purpose...

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dnice1702

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Lately, I've been feeling like I had no purpose in my life. Sure, I live day to day, acting all happy and cheerful and "oh, life is good" and all that bullshit, but I'm not. I'm 21 years old. I have no job, and I still live with my mom and two younger brothers.

Every night I go to bed and think to myself: "What have I accomplished? Absofuckinglutely nothing." I want to do something with my life. But I don't know what I want to do. I don't want to go to college... won't be able to get in anyway. I don't know what I'm interested in. I don't have any hobbies. I have very few people who I can actually call a friend. One's apprenticing to become an electrictian, one's an aircraft mechanic, and one's apprenticing for carpentry during winter and he's a hunting guide during summer.

As for me... I'm clueless. I hate this town, but I don't want to leave. My family and friends are here. I have a hard time getting to meet people. I have no social life, and so I sit here at the computer for 12+ hours a day.

I suck at life.:happysad:
 
you say you have few friends but you stick around for the friends and family..

all i got is the same as before, just try a bit of travelling.. i was a lost boy when i was young.. took a while to find a few paths in life, being out of my element helped me.. made me think and embrace life.
good luck. :thumbsup:
 
yeah i'd love some purpose too. in the meantime i just distract myself from the purposelessness ha thats not a word but i dont care. my main 'purpose' thing right now is trying to commit to relationships but i suck at life as well and of course its my own fault oh well. obviously you're not alone in that because thats pretty much what everyone is trying to figure out.
 
Well I was sent out to the helo today to paint the rivit heads inside the cabin with a permiment marker. I spent 2 hours coloring fucking screw heads.

It could always be worse.

I hate where I'm living now, but can't leave because of the whole military thing. Also I got orders today, and it said I have to have this medical thing done before Dec 21st 2005.:confused: :confused: :confused:

Standard military operaton.:rolleyes:



Just hang in there.
 
I'm with Void on this one. All I could think while I was reading is how you needed to travel. You don't have to go far even, just get away, if you don't you'll more than likely regret it later and always wonder "what if".

If I were your age and had no strings tying me down, I'd do an online search for jobs nationwide and see what makes me light up ya know? You don't HAVE to have a college degree, you just need to know what you want and go for it, (unless that does actually require a degree, then you'll decide whether or not it's worth trying).

Of course, this is just me... there's things I should have done when I was younger that aren't practical now at this stage in my life. (no regrets really- just a bit of retrospect- my hindsight's 20/15). ;)
 
That's what I mean, do the search, sometimes (especially right now in the U.S. with all the destruction from the hurricanes) companies hire groups of people and pay for their transport elsewhere. They don't only need construction crews and whatnot, there are a lot of other daily jobs that need to be filled as well (in case you're not into the construction portion). I know you're in Canada, I am using that as a "for instance" more than anything. I'm sure there are similar job opportunities in Canada.This doesn't have to be your last job ever, btw.

There are also companies who hire nationwide for several people at a time when starting up new companies and such. They need a whole company therefore, if they're rich enough, they foot the location/transport. Just be careful and do ALL the research before packing your bags that it's legit.
 
I feel the need to say I'm not suggesting you DO anything specifically I mentioned. I'm saying this is something I would do if I were in your shoes, and I'm just giving examples of what could be out there.

On the subject of your "purpose". I've had these feelings myself before - still do really. They never really leave you. I have accepted that perhaps my purpose or contribution to society may very well be my children. I am a link in the chain of events maybe. We may go through our whole life never finding our "purpose" but generations later who knows? Just live it and enjoy it. That's really everyone's purpose I think.

You know Einstein's mom probably didn't feel like she was some major contributor to the world either.... well maybe not in her younger years anyway ;).
 
forgiven, not a lot of people in this site know how our towns work. it's hard living up here in the north and in small ass towns, everyone knows your business and everyone thinks your the same person as you were in highschool, nothing ever changes.
i can see your hesitation about moving, i know i once had a hard time with it, now i'm counting the days till i can bail. where you live i can't see very many openings to jobs besides McD's or some shit, your town is way smaller then mine. good luck on the job thingy, and alls i have to say is GET OUT, RUN FOR YOUR LIFE!
 
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