Writeleft, I am at a loss for words, but reading your message brought tears to my eyes, and this is happening to me for the second time to day. I know I am an emotional man, and crying a bit doesn't really emasculate me. But I was crying not only out of sadness over the news from you, but also for the realization that I can't be of any concrete help to you, except through praying and sending over good vibrations. I don't know how good I am with those things. No, I don't meant to see you purely as a victim, but it blows my mind to understand that you are a strong-willed person struggling with a personal battle, perhaps bigger than you might have expected.
Anyway, I know that a mind's force and power is huge, and alone through mental images you can accelerate your healing process. There are books about this, it won't be difficult to find them. You can create those mental images of yourself as a totally "healthy" person again even on your recliner. Breathe slowly and intently and talk to your inner organs (eyes closed) as if you could delicately encourage them to heal. Do that as often as possible every day. I feel that you will gradually become yourself again.
I think the advice from the others is also very commendable.
Keep us informed, will you?
Anyway, I know that a mind's force and power is huge, and alone through mental images you can accelerate your healing process. There are books about this, it won't be difficult to find them. You can create those mental images of yourself as a totally "healthy" person again even on your recliner. Breathe slowly and intently and talk to your inner organs (eyes closed) as if you could delicately encourage them to heal. Do that as often as possible every day. I feel that you will gradually become yourself again.
I think the advice from the others is also very commendable.
Keep us informed, will you?